my way of life

2010-12-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

hey !
today is my first day of attachment ):
wasnt as fun as i thought.
i feel .. so lonely. Lol.

anyway, had xmas party the day before the attachment with my workmates till 3am.
hahas, it's crazy when you're having attachment in few hours time and you're not sleeping yet ._.

i slept in for awhile and went to prepare my stuff for attachment.
in the end, i was late.
HAHAH !
this is how it went ..

took bus and mrt to reach Dover,
since i thought there's bus in dover which can reached NUH.
but in the end, no -.-
i was like !@%#^#!%!
so i decided to take taxi there since i got no time to walk back to mrt station and take the train to the next stop.

HOWEVER !
i waited for taxi for 15mins and it felt like an hour -.-
all the sudden, a lady popped up from nowhere and asked me if im heading to NUH or not.
and WE share the cab !
it was like .. -jumps around happily -

Lol, chatted while on the way there
kinda awkward though :\

reached, and headed to my ward
Hahaha, i have no idea where/what is my ward.
called kaeshin for help D:

reached, and i was late for few mins .
lecturer orientate us stuff like that.
yeah.. i felt so .. zibi. i got no one to talk to.
i wanna go back TTSH ... ):
i feel more comfortable there :\
i mean seriously. and thank god that the next posting is at KTP -.-

hope it's better though.
anyway, had lunch after tat, and we head back to our cubicle to help up a bit.
B-O-R-I-N-G. workmates over there doesnt seems friendly ):
im anti right now. that's why everything feels shitty to me.
Z.

after that took bus home.
long ride.
alone.
feels great.
Ha.

2010-12-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

i tried to blog about my life for the past few weeks, and realised i cant.
it's either i cant put in words or i got nothing to update about.
sometimes, i typed all my stuff in this blog, and backspace everything in the end.
idky, but i know that my feelings towards life is uncertain.

2010-12-05T17:16:00.005+08:00

HELLO!
after 3months of not blogging properly, im here to blog :B
i should have a habit to blog, tweet and tumblr regularly since it's HOLIDAY already !
however .. most of my friends arent having the same holiday as me ..
so, yeah ..
here's a picture to perk you up !

hahahhs, anyway.
there's so much things to blog about my life that i dont know where to start!
so yeah .. i think i shall blog about yesterday.

i woke up and received a text from my workmate .
she asked me if im able to work today.
i agreed immediately -.-
after few minutes later, i realised i wanted to do MY OWN stuff.
since my exam is OVER !

so yeah, i went for work instead of mini "celebration of my exam being over"
T.T went for work via mrt.
reached, and start working.
was fun actually :B

but .. cant helped to feel that im not part of their team ):
anyway, so yeah.. after work, went to B1 to walk around.
and i saw a very very cool clock !
i want it in my room ! but it cost around $89.90.
gonna save! yaayayayayay !

after that, i saw this ..

and i bought it for $5 , 15pax !
omg -.- it's so darn expensive. T.T
but it's so darn good !
hahha x.x
so yeah, went home after that via bus.
hahahhas, almost slept with my contact lens D:

reached, bathe, and START USING MY COM AFTER DUNO HOW MANY DAYS/MONTHS ALREADY !
and i create tumblr ! and it's so darn addicting.
see all those cool pictures and etc !
hahahs, after that ...
i still continue to tumblr.
and continue ..

Lol, sad life. i got nobody to talk with.
HAHAHAHA !
okay, i think ill stop here already!
BYE ! :D

2010-11-29T20:45:00.001+08:00

I got no reason to live on.
But, I don't know what's holding me back. Irony huh ?

2010-11-29T20:43:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 21 sept

I paid my bill already ! Hahaha, I managed to remember to do it . Lol, if not my bill is due already .

Anyway, went to my work place as usual . Reached there early, so went to the tea room to kill time . Coincidentally, jay was having her break . Hahahas . Chatted with her for awhile .

Was having stomach pain D:
So went to the toilet to relieve the pain.
Hahaha, omg . Too much information already ! Hahaha .

Anyway, CI called us for a meeting . Go through our assessment and our itouch stuff like that .

After that, went back to our cubicle to do our work .

Went to find CI about my schedule for the second batch . Sigh, was wondering how I'm going to survive that day without knowing anyone from the second batch . :/

-skip skip skip-
Went to have dinner at long John silver . Hahaha, went to buy the meal . Can't remember wad it called. Yeahh, they handled me a lucky draw thingy . I thought I won a lappy sia . In the end, is to colloect 3 of those then can win .
Lol, so pai seh sia . Hahaha .

After that we went back to work .
Ended 10mins late cos need to make milk for her .
Hahaha, I have no idea how to make sia . Royce also duno how to make too . Lololol . Since we both dun drink milk .

In the end, we somehow make the milk, but not sure how it taste like :x

After that meet Hidayah and her friend and went home together o:

2010-10-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

what's the point of staying optimistic when nobody give a damn about it ?
and also, why people always dont give a damn of others ?
i've been trying so freaking hard to stay actively positive
what do i get in return?
nothing, i was being ignored instead .
hahahhas, life sucks as usual (:

2010-10-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

A : HELLO ! :D
B : HELLO ! :D
A : bye..
B : bye O:

A; :|

2010-09-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

today is another day i forced myself to wake up ..
T.T it's quite torturing .
nevermind, 6more days of attachment ! <3
less than a week already (:
and and 5 more days to India trip O: !
*shocked* ! hahahah, till now i still havent pack my luggage -.-

how i wished i could meet you up before i go
awwww, nahhh . HAHAHA

anyway, bed 9 finally discharged !
hahahah, our super model is no longer already . (:
and and i just found out one of the patient is 101 years old .
he's damn cute sia x.x
he looks like 70+ years old

how i wished he's my great grandfather .
hahahah xD

anyway, ate instant noodles with colleague in the tea room during lunch break
hahahah, thinking that it will be cheap but in the end it is not ):

anyway, had been tested on Whefra assessment ~.~
she kept interrupting when i havent finished talking about it ):

went home after work .
tiring ~.~
slept on my sofa when i reached home as usual
hahahs .

2010-09-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

today !

i woke up at my living room sofa and realised i overslept !
woke up at 5.40am when im supposed to leave around 5.45am instead D:
omgomgomgomg ! quickly prepared and took train to work

~.~
reached at around 7:02am
hahaah, omg i think the train is being kind to me
Lolololol, reached did the same old thing again O:

bathing the patient, take vital signs, etc etc
~.~
had lunch break at popeye with my colleague <3
niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hahas, aftet that we went back,

and i got scolded from another staff for not telling stuff nurse about one of my patient's respiration rate being low :\

went back home afterwards,
i mean after work .
reached, and i slept .

2010-09-25T12:49:00.003+08:00

24/09/10, friday .

went for work as usual .
was almost late cos of the train keep stopping at one station for a very long time D:
hahah, reached .
and walked around till 8am .

i fed the patient for the second time !
hahahah, idk how i spent the whole day
but time passed quite fast O:
anyway, one of my patient was not feeling well,
she doesnt have the appetite to eat her breakfast,
so went to feed her to make sure she ate her breakfast o:

after tat did sponging as usual .
~.~
went to have brunch with wint,
kinda awkward D:
lols, anyway, bought slurpee to drink :D

went back to work, and realised one of my patient got h1n1 .
so the doctor told me to encourage the patient to wear mask
all the sudden my CI went to scold her for talking to me, since im just a student nurse ._.
so fierce, then the doctor went to show her attitude O:
woah .. the scene ..
lols, anyway, walk around as usual .
chatted with patient and my colleague to kill time

after work, went home .
prepared and went marina square to meet wei ting, kristina and clement <3
hahas, ate at manhanttan .
food portion wasnt that great .
lol, it's freak small ._.

hahas, after that wei ting left O:
was thinking to go esplanade, but it was closed .
so we ( kristina, clement and i ) went to westmall carpark to slack
hahahah, nice atmosphere to slack .
the moon, the start, the clouds .
hahahas,
perfect place to sit down with friends to drink and talk stupid stuff .
hahas,

soon, clement went to meet his friend for awhile and jordan came
woah woah woah ! i've became the lightbulb .
hahahah, anyway, played some kiddish game while in the carpark .
Lol, slack till 12am and we went home already . ~.~

2010-09-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

sigh ...
after few days of not blogging .
i totally forgot wad i did already
-.-

sian, anyway,
today was morning shift and the day before was afternoon shift .
so, it's quite tiring . T.T
it's like going back to my work place less than 12 hours ~.~

anyway, today didnt do much
cos most of the sponging for the patients are being taken by my colleague :\
i managed to feed and chit chat with my patients .
Lol, oh yeahhhhhhhhhh .
i was supposed to help to take out IV plug from my patient .
i was kinda scared :\ in the end my colleague take over me ..

~.~ helped around to take things and take parameters .
went for break with amirah, nasha and wint .

after that walk around, and we all went to meet our lecturer for some talk till 3pm
hahahh, so cool .

i don't know what's becoming of me .
im like .. getting retard or something .
today, i was like wanting to go to the toilet .
before exiting a room, i kept pushing and pulling the door
it didnt budge and it seems to be locked -.-
i walked around the room, thinking if there's any way out or not .

tried pushing/pulling again and lean my body on that door .
in the end, it opened .
zzz
stupid of me .

den while folding my uniform, i accidentally zipped until my fringe stuck on it
-.-

i just .. just ..
nevermind ..
maybe im being too distracted by my thoughts already ..
hahhas .. (:

2010-09-21T11:59:00.001+08:00

Monday, 21sept, 7th day of attachment .

Woke up early to prepare to visit my dentist ~.~
Took train to redhill to meet my dad . He drive me to Alexandra hospital . Hahas, my dentist went to tighten my braces .

Yeah .. I can't really eat hard stuff for now ):

Went west mall to have our breakfast and went our separate ways . O:

Reached home, slept for awhile .
Hahas, I didn't kept track of time seh . By the time I woke up, I realized I'm late . Quickly prepared, and went to take train for work .

Luckily, I reached there on time .
Heh, but den u realized I forgot to bring my itouch T.T

So CI didn't signed anything for me today ):

One of my patient went to the iso room o: kinda weird . She looked alright to me ~.~

Hahas, went to have our dinner break late with Royce and Victorian ( forgot how to spell his name ) late cos was observing nurse feeding a patient

Hahas, after we ate, we chatted for awhile . And u realized Vic has the same birthday as me ! Hahaha, such a coincidence. Lols, after that went back and walk around the cubicle room ~.~

There's a patient who is quite agitated :/ kinda scary .

2010-09-19T21:05:00.001+08:00

18/9/10, saturday, 6th day of attachment .

woke up very early at around 4am
slept back awhile, and went to prepare for work .

reached, did a lot of stuff
got scolded a lot of times .
yeah, whatever .
i dun mind being scolded for doing something wrong
but you dont have to scold how i was being brought up .
you know what's the stupidest thing i did?
i just keep nodding .
Zzz, i didnt know i was so sensitive to her words that made me nearly cried on the spot .
i held back real hard, and she kept rubbing on it .
FUB seh .

whatever .
i held it until work is finished .
was in the train, and started to feel so dejected that i even looked down on myself .
such a saddist .
thanks yeah?

reached home, went to prepare to have hari raya visit at hidayah's house .
at least, i feel a bit better with friends around since i got distracted away from that fucked up insults .

19/9/10, sunday .

mum came back from her trip with her friends from japan .
~.~ her friends gave her some gifts . it was cute O:

went guitar lesson as usual .
was late :\ i forgot the train service wasn't in service .
~.~ late for 40mins i think .
hahas, went into the popular shop to get something after my guitar lesson
in the end, i forgot what im supposed to buy

went westmall to buy smth else,
in the end, i forgot to buy something and also forgot to pay my phone bill
arghhh ! my memory is failing me already ..
reached home, slept on my sofa .
dad bring us out for dinner .
hahas, after that we went back home .

seriously, i need a long break .
if this continue, i might just break down .
hahas, suddenly dun feel like going for india trip alr .
i got no feel .
i don't know what situation will i be in .
later if it's like tat malaysia trip, i might just ...
Lol, idk why i always feel this way .
maybe im just being paranoid .
hahaha !

2010-09-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey !
5th day of attachment .

The reason I blog about my attachment is because I'm afraid to forget what I did for the day, in case I have reflection to do . Hahahaha :x I got stm . ~.~

Anyway, I reached early today ! 20mins before the reporting time . Hehehe, chat with jay jay about the USS . Haha, it sounded so fun o:

-start work-
I realized my patient is going to be discharge today :D
She was so excited seh . Lol, she wanted to bathe early so that she can leave immediately when her son come and fetch her . But actually her paperwork for discharged thingy is not done yet . Lol, she so cute seh . She wanted to call her children that she can discharge but she's afraid that she's disturbing them o:

Our CI called up for us about our itouch . ~.~ got so many things to do seh .. Sian .

Came back to the ward, saw her son fetching her . Haha, she was sooo happy :D

After she went, went to copy some notes about our case study T.T

Spent the whole day doing vital sign, taking notes, helping the patient to take stuff . ~.~
Two of the staff nurse scolded me for not taking hourly vital sign D: sian .

Anyway, had dinner break at 6pm ! :D
Ate kfc with my colleague . Lol, till now idk some of their name x.x hehe

After that went back do the same old stuff ~.~

But today's time passed quite fast (:
Nasha, Amirah and me waited for rois ( idk how to spell his name ) to come out when going back time . He take quite long to come out seh . After that went to meet Hidayah and her friend to go home together .

Tomorrow, going Hidayah house for hari raya visit ! :DDDDDDDD

Oh yeahhh, did turning for a patient who is having contraction muscle . ): he seems to be in pain whenever we try to stretch his arms or legs . :/ I feel so sad for him . He's having multiple bed sores D:

2010-09-17T00:23:00.004+08:00

Thursday, 160710, 4th day of attachment

today was my afternoon shift !
at first i was really excited cos can sleep late
in the end, it really sucks -.-
i prefer working in the morning .

anyway, reached and realised one of my patient is gone .
she passed away last night ):
i still remembered she's still have energy bite the tube .
i do tapping sponging on her you know ):

yeah ... anyway, new patient came in .
smiled at her .
hahah, i think im getting used to it i guess :\
but not the suctioning
way too .. i cant bare to watch it ..

yeah, anyway today nothing much
just stoning there :\
especially from 2pm to 5pm, 3hrs seems like 8hrs
-.-"

there's a moment of intensity ouside my ward .
i went and take a look .
there's a MRSA patient, whose blood pressure couldnt be read
:\ which means he's going off soon
it's quite depressing sia ..
they are gone, just like that ...

went to attend the last office .
he look so pale ... :\
all his family members were crying ..
sigh ..

anyway, after that we continue to do our work
had dinner break at around 6pm
went to have dinner with amirah O:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
after that went back to our ward to do same old stuff
anyway, got close with one of my patient .
hahahah, she so kind O:

BTW !
jay jay and usamah went USS today with YOG people ):
i also want to go siol
hahhah, too bad hidayah and me got attachment ~.~
hey you ! USS !
im gonna save money for you
hahahhah, $70 sia ):
im planning to buy for 2 days
hahahah cos i heard 1 day is not enough for everything

2010-09-15T22:21:00.003+08:00

third day of attachment !

15more days of attachment, and im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
and i fly .
hahhahah, i still dont have a luggage to pack .
sian, somemore 2 weeks, got a lot of stuff need to pack O:

anyway,
today !
i was almost late D:
even though i took the first 2nd bus -.-
so early seh .. i left house around 0545am
imagine, me, who always overslept, to leave house around 0545
): tough life . hhahas

anyway, reached .
didnt ate breakfast .
Lol, i can feel my Bp dropped immediately when i squat and then stand up .

anyway, i did lots of stuff today o:
changing bedsheet, draining urine from urine bag, repositioning of patients, TPR, removal of IV catheter, changing of diapers, sponging, etc etc ~.~

the removal of iv catheter, scary sia D:
one of the patient got discharged . i have to remove the iv catheter for her .
T.T is the needle sticking into the vein located at the forehand
den den .. ! yeah .. scary :\
i took quite long to take out . Lol
she's a nice person :B
and her grandson bring her home . so sweet seh
hahas

yeah .. i was really satisfied after helping her to remove the IV plug .
Lol . i feel some accomplishment .
hahaha, yeah ..

o yeahh, our CI is being very strict today ):
so fierce :\

went home around 3pm ! :D
tomorrow afternoon shift alr, long hours T.T

2010-09-14T22:41:00.002+08:00

140910, Tuesday, second day of attachment .

early in the morning, i forced myself to wake up . T.T
bathe, and quickly went to take the bus
hahaha, kinda awkward wearing dress uniform to walk .
so hard to sit down and bend down O:

hahaha, anyway, took mrt to novena again
slept during the ride :B

reached, had bread for breakfast .
hahahh, after that headed to our ward with jay jay .

our CI orientate us, and we were posted to our ward .
i didnt know what to do sia D:
nobody told us what we are suppose do ~.~
and also duno what do to with our itouch ._.

hahas, anyway had lunch break at around 10.30am .
Lol, so early right? D:
after that, went back and continue to observe .
~.~
yeah ... waiting for the clock to strike 4pm .
hehehe, it's a long wait though
but i observed quite a lot of stuff O:
some stuff .. quite scary :\

yeah, after that we went home ~.~
cant believed that i still have to go back on saturday .
Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn T-T

2010-09-13T22:12:00.004+08:00

Friday, 100910, mid autumn festival

met up with zoe at bukit batok interchange at 5pm i think .
hahah, took train to habourfront to meet kristina :D

hahah, we got down at commonwealth first since we were feeling uncomfortable by the train that we're taking . too many MIC .
hahahaha

took another train towards habourfront,
lololol
reached, and waited for kristinaaaaaaaaa
met up, and we headed to lao pa sa ! x3
so many food .
hahaahah, ended up ordered satay, stingray,ban mian, shrimp ramen, and chao kway tiao
first time eating this way with friends . hahahaahah, eat damn full :B
though stingray wasnt good as i thought . hahahahah

after that we went to find the place which is celebrating the mid autumn festival
which is around the singapore river .
hahahah, the place quite big .
Lol.

reached, took lots of pictures
hahahha, all in facebook :B
after that we went a place to sit down and slack .
hahhah, overall, i had funnnnnnnnnnnnnn x3
kristina's brother drive us home .
hahaha, thanksssssssssss ! :D

saturday, 110910, suki sushi, movie, esplanade x3

meet up with li jing and li yun at gombak
at first i was worried about the mrt thingy is being disrupted or something .
hahahah, told my brother the wrong information .
:x

took train to raffles place to meet claudia
in the end, she's late ._.
we though she going to reach early .
hahaha, after that waited for her while taking pictures .
:D
took train to somerset .
hohohohohohohoho, went suki sushi to eattttttt !
hahh, i didnt expect myself to eat so much .
hahah, i ate quite a lot .
i ate cha soba somemore D:
and still feeling hungry . hahahaha
i don't know what's wrong with me already .
my appetite getting bigger and bigger -.-

went for a walk with li jing,
when we came back, they settle the bill already -.-
it's a "surprised" hahaha, they said it was a meal before going to india .
hhahahah . thanksssssssssssssss ! :DDDD

after that we bought tickets for grow ups .
hehehe, damn funny ! i feel like watching again .
hahahahh :x

after that we headed down to esplande .
took lots of crazy photos
hahahaha
damn cool x.x

slack till 10pm i think or 11pm .
cant remember .
took train home afterwards !

sunday, 120910, guitar lesson for 2hours .

hahahah, had guitar lesson for 2hours .
that's the "main event i had for the day ._. "
reached home, slept .
Lol, i was planning to clean my room, but i failed .
HAHAHA !

i will try to clean my room tomorrow i think
hahah .

monday, 130910, first day of attachment

met jay jay and nasha at novena at 7am
T.T so early .
after tat had breakfast at the nearest shop to eat .
coincidentally met up with roy .
he joined us afterwards O:

hahaha, after eating, walk towards the lecture theatre . ~.~
so many NYP people .
lols, basically, we spent most of our time sitting there to listen their talk D:
accidentally slept for a few times :x
hhahah, after had a very short tour around the hospital .
went back to the theatre to have another talk again T.T
talk talk talk talk, slept .
it ended 2hours later ._.

met up with hidayah,
to take the ndp cert and yog badge .
heheh . so nice .
Lol, after tat we took train back .

i wanna watch lots of movieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ):

2010-08-31T19:01:00.004+08:00

):
attachment is like ..

monday 13th sept - 8am ~4pm - meeting claudia, li jing, si kang, and li yun x3
tuedsday 14th sept - morning shift
wednesday 15th sept - morning shift
thursday 16th sept - afternoon shift
friday 17th sept - afternoon shift
saturday 18th sept - morning shift
sunday 19th sept - rest day

monday 20th sept - afternoon shift
tuesday 21th sept - afternoon shift
wednesday 22th sept - afternoon shift
thurdsay 23th sept - morning shift
friday 24th sept - morning shift
saturday 25th sept - morning shift
sunday 26th sept - rest day

monday 27th sept - morning shift
tueday 28th sept - morning shift
wednesday 29th sept - morning shift
thurdsay 30th sept - afternoon shift
friday 1st oct - afternoon shift
saturday 2nd oct morning shift
sunday 3rd oct - fly to indiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

worst of all, i still have to do another day of attachment when i come back -.-
gahhhhhhhhh, hope this attachment got pay us some allowance ~.~
Dear friends, :B please ask me out ! * thick-skin thick skin *
hahahs, if not i might go crazy with nursing stuff -.-
* i know nobody coming here to read my blog, but still, people who are reading, please ask me out *
hahahah ! x.x

2010-08-29T21:42:00.002+08:00

been watching personal taste !
HAHAHAH, omg, i want to have a room mate like him ):

oh yeahhhhhhhhhhh, i've been studying FON for the past 2 days -.-
i only managed to finished one of the book, still got another book to go D:
im slacking too much already T-T

jia you, wai hian !
HAHAHAHH, damn zi bi to type that .
anyway, happy 29th O:

2010-08-27T02:25:00.002+08:00

im here to post !
like finally ! <3

okayokay, i lost interest in blogging already
but im trying to revive my blog O:

today ! it was YOG closing ceremony !
woke up, and ate breakfast .
took bus to gombak MRT station, guess what? :B
i saw himmmmmm ! lol, i doubt he know my existence .
Lol . anyway, after that took train to city hall, to meet hui xiang, amanda and elin
walked towards to marina entrance to meet the rest .

met leader and he explained the plan for today .
after that we had our free time
went arcade to walk around to kill timeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ):
afterwards, had porridge buffet for brunch O:
it was nice ~ :D :D :D
hahahas, was late for pre-arrival deployment .

and we went to our separate position,
was boring as usual :\

at around 3pm, went to arrival deployment, i was aloneeeee T.T
hahahas, but it was okay actually .
i was literally singing, and talking to myself D:
lololol .

after few hours had passed, we went into the place where all the spectators are walking towards mrt station after watching the parade .
kept saying "bye"and "thank you for coming" .
never shout so much before ~.~
but it was fun :D

after that, debrief, and we walked around the floating platform
o: quite small .
after that went makansutra to eat stingray !! <3
hahahhaha, niceeeeeeeeeeeeee :P

took 106 with deryk and darrick O:
den took 945 afterwards ..

2010-08-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

HEY !
bro and i bought a computer
it's like finallyyyyyy ! <3
i think i can update my blog more often (:
tehehehhe, so excited .
shall start from tomorrow onwards .
hahhas .

2010-08-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

hey hey !
my blog, seems dead O:
yeah .. anyway, my com got crashed i think
it cant worked anymore ..
there's why im lagging behind the technology world D:
is either i stayed home watch tv, or stay out late
~.~

hahas, anyway,
i went through my history for my blog
and looking back in my life, i find myself stupid, retard, act cute, attention seeker
Zzz, cant believed how my friends can withstand my attitude stuff like that .
Lololol, even myself, i cant take it .
hahaha, what a joke . (:

2010-08-09T02:00:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY !
im going to have a short post instead since it is 2.20am ~.~
i still wan to day dream for awhile before i go to sleep
Hahahs !

anyway, today !
had guitar lesson as usual
omgomgomg, im one step nearer to play a very nice song .
hehehehe, so excited to be able to finished that song O:

after that, went vivo city to meet them
at first, i thought meet at jurong east interchange D:
hahah, reached .
bought some stuff, and we went to buy the tickets for sentosa .
kinda awkward though :\

we went siloso beach,
we played captain ball and some water activities :D
i got tanned ! hahahha, im so tanned right now ~.~

bathe, and we went universal studio to walk around
we went to Hershey shop !
feels like walking into a chocolate world, so many chocolate bars ~.~
im so tempting to eat, but i cant T.T

hahas, after that we took bus to vivocity to have our steamboat buffet for dinner !
buffet somemore .
i got braces -.-
so how? most of the time i ate crabstick and fish fillet ):
i cant really eat the meat T.T

after that, we went to the sky garden thingy ( cant remember ) to sit around
played true or dare O: then we started to chat around
kinda funny. hahahah, i still remembered victor run to another crowd, runing in circle, saying that he's handsome and u all are ugly x3 !
HAHAHAHA, that's really damn brave seh !

some left after that, and we continued to chat around O:
about ghost story D:

hahahs, when i looked up,
there's no moon, and only one star
still hanging on, shinning so brightly
how brave ..

2010-08-06T15:09:00.001+08:00

Test test o:
Currently trying to use itouch to update my blog ~.~

2010-06-18T02:52:00.003+08:00

16th june

i had my first poly class gathering ! ♥
guess what? only 5 people attended, plus me .
HAHAHAH, nice ._.

anyway, we went sakura for lunch ! buffet :D
hahaha, it was raining at that time,
it was really nice . plus the food and atmosphere .
the best food that i ate was grilled salmon :D :D :D

it was really niceee hahahas after that we went jurong point to watch A team ,
the movie was way too awesome ! :D ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

after that we went to walk around and then we went home after that

17th june

had primary school gathering at bugis !
i woke up and slept back again at 10am .
i just realised that i yesterday forgot to locked my gate ~.~
omggg, that show's how tired i am .
lololol, jkjk .

anyway, woke up and get ready and went to meet yin tong, yun qing, joshua, joel, zheng wei, jing teck, dominic, randy at jurong east mrt station .
was late D: lol, took train to bugis .
and we waited for our turn to have lunch in seoul garden at starbucks
stephaine joined us and we waited together .
waited for quite long :\
but but ! we managed to eat :D
it was niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
after that we walked around wondering what do to next .
wanted to watch movie, but some of the backed out .
therefore, we changed our plan to play pool .
hahaha ! seriously, my skill CMI alr .
but still, we played for 2hrs ++
~.~

after that we took bus to bukit panjang,
took some photos while waiting for bus 187
HAHAHA, kinda fun though .
lololol, took the bus, and we coincidentally saw Elton
he totally changed sia D:
from small sized guy into big sized D:
haha, we get down near dunearn secondary school to slack and take some photos .
randy and elton left .
we ( joshua, jing teck zheng wei ) chatted till 2am .
hahhas, had some heart to heart talk about personalities stuff

anyway, zheng wei left .
and we continue to chat until my house's coffeeshop .
lol, on the way there saw a lot of cockroaches T.T
brother called, and went home afterwards .

thanks for the talk, i really appreciate it (:

* pictures in facebook .
hahhas, lazy to post it on here ~.~

2010-06-13T22:09:00.004+08:00

im getting drunk today

it didnt worked, i drank it with straw and drank it with one mouth
it didnt worked . why?
instead, it making me feel more horrible
feelings ... emotions .. why do i feel them so strong?
cant i just let go ? why aint anybody give a damn about me?
i was thinking of suicidal, and yet ...
nobody wanted to comfort me, listen to me .
what did i do wrong..?
why is my life like this?
why ?.. why i do not have a friend who is willing to talk to me, and lending their ears to me .
i wanted to die so freaking bad .
but im afraid . why cant i have the courage to kill myself?
why?..

)':

2010-06-05T11:12:00.003+08:00

hey hey !
so long didnt update my blog already .
i wanted to but i got no time for it ):
i miss touching my keyboard and start typing my ranting .
hahahaha

anyway, celebrate my birthday with krisitna, charmaine and zoe @ pastamania :D
followed by benjamin, beng chew, roy, wei ning, dragon, jonathan at void deck
hahahas, thanks for the celebration . i love it <3

after a week, it was kristina's birthday !
i planned a surprised mini celebration for her
it was cool :D we, zoe, wei ting, clement, kenneth and jordan manage to surprise her .
hahahahs :D

and and !
my practical test !
i passed ! <3 but i screwed up a lot . O:
okayokay, let me update on my practical
cos i find it very interesting .
HAHAHA

okayokay, on that day, i wore my nurse uniform to school
!!! yeah, i know . i shouldnt do that . ):
it's like very big, and i wear until like very ugly -.-
anyway, i wore it .
i was really nervous D:
my class + another class was in a holding room
waiting to be tested .

hahaha, the holding room it's quite cool
got contact lens cover, coloured contact lens, cute notes, stuff like tat
hahhaha, i wanted to take one cos the packaging it's very nice O:

yeah, anyway, im the last one to be tested in my group
and my tension get worst and worsen after every people who went out of the holding room
T-T save meeeeeeeeeeee !

hahaha, anyway, it was my turn .
i went in, and i was told to pick a card out of 3 .
i was hopping to get PPE, which was the easiest .
instead, i got a TPR which require me to take patient's temperature, pulse and respiration ¬.¬

anyway, i panicked, idky . D:
went to talk to the dummy which was my patient .
explain the whole procedure, and proceed myself to take my requisites
i forgot to put my stuff onto the tray, and i hold it on my hands when im not suppose to
T.T

and i totally forgot to take my clinical chart !
ahhhhhhhhh, lol .
i went to take it, and i keep walking front and back
thinking what to do next -.-

anyway, i keep repeating my words and i keep pausing my words too
):
for example, i was suppose to say " access the patient oral lesion "
i said " access the patient oral ... oral ... oral .. oral .. oral .. oral "
i forgot the word "lesion" -.-
and the examiner helped me by saying the word "lesion"
OMG . lol, i think she's kind pissed off . cos i keep repeating the word .
i done it twice not once -.-
the other one is cot side , i said cot thingy, i mean cot .. this ( start touching the cot side ) -.-

lol, aiya .
pretty much screwed up
hahaha, better luck next time O:

yeahhhhhhh, anyway
school in poly was definitely different in secondary school
o: so many people in the campus
but it's fun i guess .
i learn how to be participative .
:D :D :D
india trip during October !
hahahahah, cant wait O:
2 weeks somemore :D

so many things to update my life
1 : NDP usher ( i was chosen )
2 : clinical attachment ! :D @ queenstown polyclinic, st luck hospital, health promotion board and yishun eldercare
3 : india trip ( 14 days ) during october

but i doubt i can blog stuff about them :/
it's under their terms and condition O:
shall update more next time
i need to study now already !
wish me luck ! hahahaha :D

o yeahh, last week
coincidentally saw him in the bus and in tutorial class
i think our eyes met x.x
hahahhah .

2010-05-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

tadahhhhhhh !
nobody will rescue you when you needed help badly ..
well, that's life O:

yeahhh , anyway !
kris allen finally got a new song !
which is called the truth .
ahahaha, kinda cool .
listen listen ! :D :D :D
but i still prefer adam lambert (:

today is wednesday !
i love wednesday ! ahahaha cos whole day we having lesson at lecture theater
:D :D :D - hint hint hint -
cos when i saw tat guy, it kinda make my day
x.x ( how i wished he was in my class )
AHAHAHAH ! kinda sound despo like tat .
opps ! ahahaha xD

and also, my attachment is comingggggggg ! O:
heard is kinda boring cos u just stand there and watch how nurses work in there
~.~

yeahhhhhh,
nothing much happened today O:
just that i managed to print out my scores and forms for NDP :D
O YAH !
today, while having my lecture, i went to the toilet
guess what?

i found a phone , those QWERT nokia phone
omgomgomg, so cool
i went to take it, and have a look .
( this phone, doesnt have nice function, dun think i wanna buy this kind of phone )
that's wad i think while holding the phone
AHAHAHAH ! idky why i think that way .
anyway, i went to text hidayah about it , waited for reply
but she didnt reply . ):

so i left the phone there
thinking that somebody will come back and take it back
O:

but nobody took it back, so went back to my class,
but coincidentally the class ended again ( i have this kind of experience twice )
lols, i mean when i go to toilet and go back to class , and just nice it ended .

told them about it,
lol, kinda stupid seh, why didnt i took it and called to that person's friends and tell them about it
-.-
yeahh, anyway, went back to retrieve the phone
neither do i expect, someone took it !
OH NO ! no laaa, she told us she planned to pass it to the general office .
after the whole incident, i feel kind of bad .
lol, stupid right? -.-
didnt think of her contacts have " home " number
and manage to contact her or smth .

anyway, went home afterwards ~.~
reached home, i went to sleep immediately
omgomgomgomg, i know .
my life is kinda boring :\
im been trying to spice up my life though O:

2010-05-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

okay okay :D
im blogging it today !
excited? i guess not O:

anyway, this post will be a wordy post .
since i got no nice picture to upload
i wanna get a new phone !
with new camera, which i can upload into my computer and update my blog O:
sound cool leh ~.~

kinda excited though
wad abt a camera, which can auto upload into the website
woah, damn coolxzcxcz .
hahahs

anyway, let's talk about last week which happened to me
i got staphylococcus in my throat !
i mean, i got sorethroat D:

i got 3 days of voice breaking down
my voice got lowered, which made a very sexy voice
hahahas , had fever for two days .
damn .

anyway, i still went to school
-.- because of idk .
i just went to school for the sake of going to school
appreciate me okay ?
hahas

let's talk about friday
:D

woke up at around 6.20pm and get ready for school ( it's starts at 8pm )
damn tired seh .
took 947 and switched to bus 61 .
reached and realised i forgot to charge my phone D:

anyway, met up with hidayah and grace .
walked towards our class, long journey ):

reached, and i was coughing badly .
went to refill my water bottle, and there's a guy behind me
and i really noticed him about something .
he always wear yellow shirt -.-
it really stands out and idky .

anyway, while refilling my bottle, grace went to the toilet .
after that, went to meet her afterward .
had lectures .
had a sleepy mood again
omggggggggggg, i've been sleeping in class lately -.-
i think is my sickness
must be ba D:

had lectures + practical practices till 5pm
damn tired ):

after that, grace and me went to library to do some homework
damn troublesome -.-
and hidayah went to meet her friends .
after that, we met again, and went home separately .

i just know it .
nothing go smoothly in my life .
hahas, i just have to accept it .
because life sucks !
:D :D :D

anyway, currently chatting with ben,
HAHAHA he damn .. lol, duno wad word to use it on him
-.-
kinda excited, caused talking about food .
omgomgomg, i wanna eat big meal with my secondary friends ):
i think i shall go alr
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

2010-05-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

HEY !
i just love the night, it's so cooling O:

hahas, dun have the atmosphere to post a blog, but i'll try to :D
hmmmm, i got so much to do right now and dun feel like going to school :\
and got a surprised test today, was totally caught off guard -.-
anyway, for 5/20 .
whereas my friend got 16/20 .
-.- what the shit, it's so ..
lol, nevermind .
den somemore that ...

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i just wish, my luck would improve .
fate/destiny whatever that is ..

sorry for this ranting post again
shall post it again till my moods come back to it's original place

2010-04-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY !

had school as usual,
dang man, idk . i just want to change class -.-

anyway, after school, took 61 to west mall
and 945 to HGV for performing under the stars .
when i reached void deck opposite HGV, it started to rain heavily
D:

called felicia to bring umbrella
hahahs, omg .
the thunder and lightening so scary D:

went up to band room,
warm up, ate dinner .
and we went to perform at hall
:D , and while performing, my phone rang
-.- i forgot to switch to silent mood
somemore that particular person called me not once, but 6 times i think
such an .. @%#@^@

anyway, after tat stayed in school as long as possible
cos i didnt want to meet them early .
so, felicia, teck chin and me went to mac to chat for awhile O:

yeah, meanwhile waited for benjamin .
is was around 10.30pm, met benjamin, and waited for wei ning, dragon, beng chew and jon .
at first, i wasnt expecting them to come, but oh well ..

bought movie tickets at 11.45 pm, watching bounty hunters
fell asleep during the show . lol, probably too much talking in that show O:

anyway, after that we went mac to slack till 3am+ i think
afterwards walked towards ben's house and slack at his void deck .
reached home around 4am+

home doesnt feel home anymore .
what's the point of staying here waiting for nobody?

2010-04-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

let's talk about my first day of school !

i woke up, quite early, at around 6am .
mum kinda ruined my mood for awhile, she kept bringing up the past .
Zzz, anyway, ate my breakfast and took 945 to bukit batok interchange .
i think i saw someone familiar from the back view
i thought who seh ~.~ ended up it's jordan i think
lol .

anyway, when i reached bus interchange
i saw this long queue queuing for bus 61 !
omgggggg, for once, i thought i was going to be late -.-
lol, the bus journey was pretty long since there's a lot of traffic jams D:

when i reached, crossed the bridge and reach NP bus stop
there's a huge crowd over there .
while walking towards the campus, my breathe were short
i cant breathe properly due to the crowd i think ..
omggggggg, that experience was really terrible -.-
too nervous alr D:

yeah, managed to walk in an open space towards my class
O: at least got air . lol
anywayyyyyyyyyy, reached my lecture theater room O:
nobody went in, so i waited outside .
went in with a person called grace
heheheh, lol . coincidence met her on the stairs .

had a really cool teacher, from Mexico xD
hahhah, ended quite quickly .
so accompany grace to buy textbook :D
but left afterwards cos need to meet kristina O:
find my way to makan place
heheheh, ^^v didnt lost my way

yeah, after that we went to convection centre for CCA fair O:
it's really cool O:
jordan came, ahhhhh, so awkward again .
went to meet grace O:
and waited together for the lecture to be open :D

had lecture, ended quite early O:
had lunch with grace, and another person .
forgot her name D:

that was my gastric pain started -.-
omgg, i cant believed i got gastric pain even i had my breakfast in the morning ):
and the pain lasted until now, night time .

accompany ( another person whom i cant remember ) to her next class,
and went bookshop to buy my books O:
instant sharp pain pierce my stomach -.-
lol, grace helped my buy panadol . thanks :D
ate, and rested for awhile .

went to queue to buy books .
-.- a group of girls, just cut my queue just like that
wth, im here you know .
cant you all see me ?
having gastric pain while queuing up, is like feeling #^@#&@%@# !
the after u all cut queue is like !#!@#!@%$@$!@ x2
-.-

anyway, didnt get angry since i got no energy for it
cant be bothered too

afterwards, rested for awhile, and we went for our classes .
had mini games during dr eugene's lesson :D :D :D
had group work , and we went home afterwards .
and it's raining ! <3

waited 40mins plus to managed to get in bus 61 .
to see so many ppl are waiting to get on board D:
o yeahhhhhh, i saw alpin and angelia and gabriel and one of my distance relative today !
hahhas :D

reached home, and my gastric pain getting worst
hahahah ! pain till i curled myself on the floor .
omg, that's kinda cute
lol x.x

2010-04-17T18:55:00.002+08:00

hey hey !
HELLO HELLO ! (:
isn't this rabbit cute?
hahahas, it's my cousin's pet

anyway,
had shopping spree again with kristina, her sis and her mum .
T-T zomg, i think i spent over $200 for clothes
AND i still haven't bought a new bottoms and shoes !
omgggggg, that's crazy shopping -.-

on friday, went to the temple again with my relatives to pray for my grandfather O:
spent few hours at there and we went back .
ate lunch at my grandmother house, and we went home
was really tired, reached home, and immediately fell asleep when i laid on my sofa D:
HAHAHAH ! when i woke up, i realised i was late for band
prepared, and took bus to school .
it was raining :D

today, saturday .
went for band again !
lol, been going there regularly alr
hahahs, but didnt attend their speech day .
went there to practice our songs O:
i was actually enjoying it
HA ! lol, after that, shu qin, bao xuan, felicia, gary and me went west mall to have lunch at koufu :D

kinda awkward though O:
anyway, after that felicia and i went to watch date night !
it was freaking hilarous ! omg, i wanna watch it again
hahahahs, zip ur ******* !
lol, so damn cute laaa
hahahas, and and ! during the show, it's like we are the only who are laughing out loud
~.~ so embarrassing . lol x.x
we head home afterwards O:

school is starting soon ! ):
im so nervous, im scared .
awwwwwwwwwww T.T

2010-04-15T00:40:00.003+08:00

that's the cat that im talking about :D

HAHA, darn cute right? but i think i hurt her eyes D:
anyway, today !
i went NP to buy textbooks for my course .
met kristina, jordan and brendan at the entrance .
yeahh, walk all around and i found the place to buy textbook
hahas, sorry to trouble you all though D:

i don't know what went through my mind today
perhaps im yearning for something from someone/somebody else .
oh, whatever . i don't care much about it
life still goes on .

anyway, afterwards, went back to hillgrove for band
reached, and feel abit of awkward to be there though D:
yeahh, played 2 piece of songs to mr ong, and he tell us where are the mistake that we played .
had fun :D

after the practice, walked with felicia, shu qin, zhen yu, edwin, gary towards west mall
and i went to meet up with claudia and li yun .
ate at old chang kee .
chatted awhile and we went home .

reached home, and i finally heaved a sigh of relief .
i dont know, i just felt very comfortable with myself at home .
hahaha, somehow, when im at outside, my body tend to be very tensed .
like some part of my body will be stiffed or something
hahahah ! maybe is due to people whom im with O:

dun worry, i try to change too :D
since almost everything in my life changed like making a 180 degree turn
if i stay at this position, i think i will lose out in everything, and people will say " wa lau eh, still stuck in the past ah ? "

sometimes i just wanted to tell everything in my life out to someone .
seems that, they are not interested to comfort me in anyway .
hahaha, dun worry . i will talk to myself O:
it seems to be a better way of de-stressing myself ~.~

2010-04-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

so hard to upload one picture .
ahahaha, okay !

today woke up quite late x.x
went to wash up and bathe .
took train to orchard to meet li jing ! :D
journey was long though, but i like .
hohohohhohoh !

reached ion, and we went to find our way to swensen through a directory map
ended up, there's a sercurity guard who realised that we needed help when we busy staring the map
AHAHAHA !
his service, very excellent . AHAHAHAH , he so kind x.x

okay, went swensens for our lunch <3
i had sambal grilled fish .
we eat till we bloated
ahahahaaahaha, going to be fat soon D:
o yeah, something happen after we eat .
- secret - * wink wink to li jing *
x.x !

okay, after swensen, we started shopping !
yayayayayay ~!

went uniqlo , bought lots of clothes there :x
i like their paper bag :D

after that shop till i spent nearly $90
opps . first stop of shopping leh T.T

after that we went far east plaza :D
li jing keep restricting me to buy some stuff
awwww .
walked around, and chatted for awhile .

afterwards, we decided to go back .
so, took train to batok :D
the long way, which requires one hour to reach our destination
so niceeeeeeeeeee, you know !

decided to eat mac for our dinner
double cheeseburger ! <3
hahahas, coincidentally met zhi lin they all . O:
kinda awkward though :\

after we had our dinner, we took bus home
:D had fun with li jing today
yay ! hahahahas .

2010-04-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

not going to post pictures due to blogger -.-

yeah, anyway !
on 05.04.10, had steamboat with li jing, li yun and claudia !
super nice ! :D :D :D :D

had fun with them :D
there's a stray cat , she's really cool you know ! O:
when i ask her to come up, she did and she climb to my lap and started snuggling with me
awwww ! tat's was sooo darn cute ! x.x

hahas, will show you on the next post though .
:D :D :D

okay ! let's talk about today !

today was my induction camp, was kinda excited .
hahahs, turns out to be ... okay la .. not so exciting as wad i imagine ..

i woke up around 5am ( afraid that i will be late for meeting roy )
i saw him while taking bus, omgomgomg !
lol, i saw adam lambert ! hahaha jkjk . :D

okay,
ended up, i reached there around 7am !
WTH, im early about half an hour for meeting roy .
so i waited and text him at the same time .
and ... he said tat he will be late .
D: ! why?!
so darn awkward waiting there nearly for a hour .
T.T

reached, and we went to find the place that we suppose to gather .
saw ping hui while walking .
reached, separate by names
so lonely leh ):

lol, after tat we had a talk in the LT .
talk till 12pm plus O:
almost fall asleep, lol .

afterwards, went to meet roy and ph for lunch .
was kinda lost, tried to find makan place, but cant find
so, went to a nearby food center .

after that, we went our separate ways O:
reached home, and went to sleep immediately .
maybe i was tired for waking up early just to go there to listen to their talk
hahahs .. ._.

okay ! tomorrow im going shopping with li jing !
yayness ! :D <3
thank you for accompany me
-shy shy- hhahahs :D

2010-03-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

emotions all went down ever since i went for the genting trip .
hahas, as expected it .
FML .

and my granddad now in hospital,
and .. so many stuff, bad stuff happened to my life .
i cant state everything in here, you know ..
and i ask why this whole thing happened to me and not others ?
why? it's really unfair when you got treated different from others .
it really unfair .
did i do something wrong to deserve all this ?
i mean really ..
did i do something wrong? could anyone just tell me ?
am i stingy, evil, backstabber, liars, cant be trusted, bias, dishonest, fake, stupid, retard, proud, bitchy ?
i just wish, someone could just tell me where my life went wrong to deserve all this stuff ...?
i really do ..

i've been trying to comfort myself that, the whole thing is common
dun have to think too much that why this happen this way or like that,
and spare a though for people who is in my life
i really do, and i've been trying so hard for it .
thinking that is normal to have all those bitter and sour in my life
but now, i think it's too much for my to handle .
it's really too much ..

i really wished, i could cry everything all out and wish for a better life ahead .
if not, i might shut myself out from this crazy society ..

2010-03-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my malaysia trip with li ting they all .
shld be feeling excited
but at the same time awkward
hahas, it's weird ...
i got a feeling of not going though
nevermind, i know adam lambert will be there for me
!!!
AHAHAHA :D
jkjkjk ~.~

bon voyage, wai hian ! :D
may everything tat i feel, feel safe
AHAHAHAH .
okay, will be coming back on wednesday
dun text me though O:

2010-03-19T22:20:00.004+08:00

im blogging today ! :D

woke up early to prepare bbq stuff for the mini gathering
i made lots of sacrifice lehh ! ):
lols, in the end, the sauce tat i made, was being screwed up by me -.-
yeahhhhh, prepared and met kristina, gabriel and dragon at 12.30pm .
when i reached, wei ning, beng chew, jun hong and jon was there too
so, changed of plan O:

took train to bedok, and we went sheng siong to buy bbq stuff
took nearly 2hours i think
was fun shopping there, hahas .
in the end, i forgot lots of stuff -.-"
i forgot to bring tongs, etc etc
geez, im such a failure in organizing stuff

lols, after tat we went bus interchange to wait for ming feng and we took bus to ECP ! :D
reached the bus stop and we have to walk a long distance to reached our bbq pit -.-
choose wrong pit ! - failed as a organiser -
when we finally reached our bbq pit, we were exhausted from all the walking -.-
somemore the weather is very warm D:

settled down, and gabriel and ming feng went to set up the fire . o:
played some games, etc etc
let me skip some part, lol . ( kind of forgot about it already )
benjamin and shu yi wasnt feeling good when they reached
they having high fever D:
i think they didnt enjoy the whole thing ..
nevermind, still got next time yeah ? :D :D :D

o yeahhh,
was being pushed into the sea -.-
hahas, it was fun though :D
and everyone started to pull ppl into the sea except xiu ling, shu yi and kristina ):
they didnt went into the water .
pulled dragon, gabriel and beng chew into the water
hahahs, it was hilarious!
took lots of picture :D :D :D

around 10pm, benjamin, shu yi, wei ning, xiu ling went home first .
awww, so early eh ):
after tat we started to clear up and we took taxi home
while walking towards the road, i saw many many super many stars on the sky
it was sooo romantic ~.~

i was planning when i got my driving licence, im gonna drive there and spent my time watching it
hehehehe ^^
anyway, it was sooo damn coolxzczxcz !
hahas, it's really really nice
at first was finding a 7-seater taxi, but it was nowhere to be found O:
so we divided ourselves .
jun hong, gabriel and dragon in one taxi,
and ming feng, beng chew, jon and me in another taxi .
taxi fare was cheap leh ! D:
lol, i thought it's going to be expensive, like $10 each
but it was $5 each instead o:

18 march, thursday !

woke up early though
hahs, prepared and took bus-train to jurong east .
went to cpf building to ask about the school fee for my poly
queued, ask, queued again .
lol, i thought i was going to be late for meeting up li ting, zoe, wei ting, wei jiet and derrick for suki , but i was not :D

met them at jurong east platform and we went somerset for suki ! <3 hahas, had buffet, and it was niceeeeeeeee :D it was hilarious when zoe wanted to show the trailer of lovely bones to wei jiet we stood there for very long time, and in the end, there's no commercial for lovely bones ahahaha ! BUT BUT ! there is adam lambert MTV ~.~ hahhas, went back to suki to have another round of mussel ^^ after tat, went to watch lovely bones . it was interesting . confused at first, but it was nice . but but kind of draggy though O: after tat sent wei ting and wei jiet to mrt station while derrick went off by bus so, left with zoe, li ting and me we took bus to botanic garden since zoe wanted to go there for awhile :D hahas, reached, and took some photos walk around for awhile jiu took 106 home O: den took 945 home with li ting :D

today, 19th march, friday

prepared took train with mum to meet my aunt, cousin and my grandmother at chinatown point shopping mall O:
ate lunch and we went to see the lawyer ~.~
talk about some stuff, and after tat we went bugis to pray stuff like tat
hahahs ! gues what? i got xia qian aka bad luck for this year
something like tat . lols ~.~
saying tat reap what you sow .
if not i get nothing at all O:

hahas, after tat went bugis junction to shop :D
ate dinner at one taiwan restaurant, cant remember the name though .
celebrate darryl's advance birthday there
and we got one huge cup of milk tea
hahahahas :D
after tat we took train home ~.~
the food was super nice
hahas .

2010-03-09T21:26:00.004+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyy !
shall use this opportunity to update my blog for awhile O:
my mind went blurry for the past 2 days
maybe due to my fever or something
hahas, sprouting different words, just say a word whenever i can think of
x.x

yeah, anyway, yesterday went kristina's house for titanic .
made me cry . ahahahah !
i wan to watch it again x.x
wasnt feeling good while watching, but i still manage to have my focus on the show
:D
zoe came around 5pm+ i think .

i think my fever went up and down, cant really talk much though
hahas, after tat we went home
took 176 to the school bus stop, and i decided to have my dinner at gombak
den walk there instead, since it's near .
but when i walked until the school back gate, i couldnt take it
hence i took bus instead, even though it's only 2 stops away D:
hahas
when i reached gombak, went to update my bankbook
and i decided not to have my dinner since i got no appetite
took 945 home
guess what? LOL, i think i saw him O:
or maybe im hallucinating -.-
ahaha, whatever .
lol .

yeah, went home, rested for awhile, do some stuff and off to sleep

today ! (:
woke up and i realised my fever went down, not totally down
but i think im having mild fever only !

had check up on a clinic which is near jurong point
having being checked on my eyes, weight, height, blood,urine, and an x-ray
geez man, i thought the blood test is like using a needle prickle on my finger,
neither do i expect, they use the so called "injection"
piercing through my vein to collect my blood .
i was shocked when they used tat but i wasnt shocked during the processed .
-.-
i was thinking " why you didnt tell me earlier ?! "
lols
yeah .. after the blood test, my visual went blurry
hands and legs turned numb
and i was really really feeling thirsty
geez man, why didnt tell us we will feel this way
at least i can do some preparation for it ._.

went to sit on the chair
immediately lied on my mum's lap
rested for awhile, and proceed with the payment
i couldnt stand at all,
rested for awhile and proceed to jurong point for an x ray .
on my way there, i kept squatting
cos i will feel giddy when i walk for a few steps

lucky i ask my mum to accompany me
if not, i might faint on the roadside
AHAHAHAH !
even though my mum kept saying to hang on longer , dun embarrass me here
if you wan to rest, rest when we are having lunch

damn stupid right?
should have asked my dad to accompany or my friends
zzz

after the x-ray, had our lunch at (one shop tat i cant remember ),
had 2 spoon of duck rice, and didnt have any appetite to eat already
the water that i drank taste like putting a coin in your mouth and food taste so damn horrible .

probably due to my fever or the injection or something or maybe is because of the mixing medicine that i mix the day before D:
shouldnt have done it though ..

rested for awhile cos my vision really went black for a while
took taxi home .

rest at home for awhile,
waited for my blood to regenerate
ahahah !
yeah, took bus and then train to kelly services to pass them my timesheet
i was afraid that when i walked halfway, i fainted
AHAHAAHA that moment will be super embarrassing ~.~
saw pang ping in the train :D
passed the time sheet to kelly services, and went back home immediately

o yeahhh, cant use com alr
dad took back his laptop
O:
right now, im using brother's laptop since he's not at home
heh, but going to go off soon !
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

2010-03-03T12:17:00.003+08:00

i really dun like my job right now

im not comfortable working there

people over there are not friendly at all .

the place over there gives me creeps

but still, i still have to hang on till thursday .

thursday i will be FREE !

no more working in dusty place,

no more sweating all day,

no more being treated like one outsider or like im a thief or something !

2 more days .. including today . :D

im still hanging on ..

on friday, spring cleaning for my room ^^

yay ! so excited !

ahahah :D :D :D

2010-02-26T21:03:00.003+08:00

i had shopping with xiu ling yesterday !
it was " WOW ! "
lol, i don't know use what word to describe it, but it's cool :D

met xiu ling at gombak station and we took train to jurong east !
ahahas, it was really warm . even the mrt we took, it's warm too ):

reached, and we went JTC building
it was huge, i tell ya .
hahas, went there to apply for job
originally it was xl who wanted to apply
but since im there already, went to apply it too ^^

after tat went to pay my guitar fee at my school, and posb to deposit my money O:
lol, took train to jurong point ! <3
reached, and we started to shop .

lol, xl went in and started to buy stuff first ( she's fast ! )
Okay,
and we start our shoping spree we brought things we have our eyes laid on,
of course check the price before we buy
but most of the time, we just bought it without thinking too much on it

surprising !

it was incredibly fast O:
yeahhhh,
after tat had lunch at fish and co where shu yi is working the food was really nice ~.~
we paid our bill and we off to shopping again ! ~.~
hahas, bought a lot of stuff totalling of ...

* pressing calculator *

$600+

including paying of my guitar fee + clothes + iTouch .
wtf ?! omg, tat's scary .
one day only lehhh ! T.T
is like one month of salary !
nooooooooooooooooooooooo ! ):
gonna work again :\
i want to find another job ~.~
i would prefer working in F&B ^^

yeah yeah ! this afternooon, kelly services called me back
asking me if i could work in watson for a week or not
SO HAPPY when i asked them if i could work back in plaza sing
but no, they say they no need ):
awww, but i will working in clementi !
hehehe, a week only O:

2010-02-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

yesterday went to send sing jie off at the airport ):

all the best sing jie when u're in Melbourne ! O:

hahas, today,
si kang, li jing and claudia came to my house ! O:

lol, before tat went to meet si kang at west mall , on my way saw kristina and her mother

guess they didnt saw me

hahas, after tat we went shop and save to buy pasta stuff
heh, gonna cook for them :D :D :D
went to meet lj and we reached my house

hahs slack, played, etc etc while waiting for claudia to come

claudia reached, and we play cards, slack stuff like that .

hahs ,cook pasta for their dinner O:

after tat continue to play , and took pictures .

they went home after that .

was fun overall !! :D :D :D

2010-02-17T22:55:00.004+08:00

16th feb 2010

wake up in the morning feeling like P diddy
grab my glasses, im out the door ...

ahaha, jkjk .
anyway, woke up in the morning and started to laze around for awhile .
hahas, waited for the clock to strike at 9am and i made a morning call to wei ning . O:
lol, after tat went to prepared .
spent too much time on choosing what clothes to wear D:
ended up late . HA ! after tat i walked towards gombak mrt station to take train to bukit panjang .

saw benjamin when i was on my way to lrt .
waved at him, and he just look at me blankly .
i thought he didnt saw me seh, ( made me so malu ) -.-
so walked up to him .
yeahhhhhh, den after tat we waited for boon peng for awhile .
and we went bpp to meet the rest of the classmates .

reached, and benjamin and boon peng went to buy orange .
AHAHA, so last min O:
after tat took 176 to mr loh's house
went to a condo, and a security guard stop us and ask for the residence block .
called, and they said 100+
and the security guard reaction was so funny ! she said tat here only got block up to 10
HA, our reaction of course will be like ... " HUH ?! "

in the end is opposide of the condo which is the terrence house O:
hahs, the distance between condo and his house is like super duper far D:
it's a long straight stretch of road D:
yeah, when we finally reached, we were tired .
sweating like pigs . lol .

stayed there for a few hours
played blackjack, HA ! won around $10++
hehehehe, lol .

after tat we left mr loh's house and went mr ng's house by bus :D
sort of big group when we are walking towards there
kind of funny though .. hahas !

reached, and we sat there to chat .
hahs few mins had passed and mr ng said ..

mr ng : eh, ping hui, i know u need this ( smth like tat )
*takes out poker card and passed it to him *
everyone just started to laugh !
that was so hilarous, must be at the scene and you will realised how funny it was
ahahas !

hahas, guys went to play blackjack, while the girls play uno
lol, soon, sec 4e2 students came too . ( our senior )
basically, it's quite crowded . around 30~40ppl i think
hahas ! so cool !

mr loh also went mr ng house by car
._. lol, mr loh join them to play blackjack
hahas, play until mr loh won $300+ lehh !!
tat's insane lahhhhhhhhhh , omggg .

took group pictures and we parted our ways .
li ting, shi jie, sing jie, zoe, syafiqah and me took train to jp , and train back to west mall .
since we decided to go swensen to have sing jie's farewell dinner O:
hahas, chat and eat at the same time . and took some pictures .
will upload in the next post ! :D
be sure to stay tunned ! hahha -excited excited-
went home after that O:

17th feb 2010

woke up and felt so irritated . idky D:
went to prepare and went gombak to deposit some money
walked to school to pass zoe graph paper
and den .. walk towards west mall ..

( super long journey lehhh !! ) omg, i sweat like shit D:
from my home to west mall via hillgrove secondary school
-.-

lol, meet up with kristina and we went to take train to jurong east .
and meet the rest of our classmates ( shi jie and wei ting )
took train to queensway and took bus to IKEA !!!
OMGOMG, waited for sing jie at ikea and we went to the cafe i think
cant remember what's the term of word to describe tat place . lol

yeah, had many many delicious food seh ~.~
we went to buy yu sheng to lau !
so cool lah !! :D

yeah, after tat shop for photo frame .
ahahs, me and shi jie got lost ._.
cant find our way to the place that we want .
lol . took us quite a long time to reach there . D:
yeah, after tat we went queensway shopping centre since wei ting wanted to buy smth .
den took taxi to sing jie's house !! last min decision .
lol, was planning to go for band around 3pm , changed to 4pm instead .
hahas , was so excited to go her house . :D
took lots of pictures, played around .
ahahas it was fun ! :D

i changed my mind for not going for band
so sorry clement ! O:
hahas stayed longer to take more pictures :D
but shi jie went for school for net ball O:
sent her off and we went to the playground to play swingggggggggg ! :D
lol, i play until i got swing sick ._. was feeling uncomfortable after playing it
hahas , it drizzle a bit and we went back .
took more pictures !!

hahas, tat's crazy .
after tat we went home O:
but i went west mall to buy some stuff
lol, went to the shop and i panicked !
omg, didnt know what kind of bear to buy D:
called kris , and she cant give me any comments since she's not there :\
she den tell me to call clement since band just finished O:
called him and he say he can go down from the bus .
he reached, and i ask him for opinion
HA! choosed , and went to paid for it .
when going down, saw claudia and ly !
omg omg , dang, should have called them instead of clement .
cause i just realised he was one stop after west mall when i called him
i feel so bad right now seh ...
so sorry to trouble you !! D:

after tat we took bus home O:
he keep saying he very sleepy, lol told him to sleep in bus and he dun wan -.-
weird right? this person ._.

2010-02-15T15:24:00.006+08:00

oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh .

is adam lambert !

he's really hot :x

even though he's gay, but his voice and looks is really amazing .

don't ya think? O:

did you watch " what do you want from me " by adam lambert ?

there's one part of him of not putting any heavy make up and letting his hair down is really really making ppl's hearts to melt

awwww ...

ahahas , okay okay enough of him already .

i've been starstuck ! * shy shy *

lol, okay okay,

yeah ... today's update will be ...

* drum roll *

actually i don't know what to update .

lol, yeah ...

hmmmm, tomorrow will be going mr ng's house and mr loh's house

im so excited . lol, idky though ..

i think i will update more on tomorrow since i got go out for that day

didnt go out today since im feeling a bit off .

yeahhhhhhh, i shall stop here already O:

geez, my house going to be empty for a week or more .

kind of creepy .. anyone wants to come my house to stay overnight? ):

im scared .

AHAHAHA, jkjk :D

2010-02-14T22:19:00.004+08:00

HEY !
today is lunar new year and valentine's day !!
excited?
yeah for me !!! cos i get to eat steamboat with my mother's side family
and the steamboat was really really really superb !
kya ! i wish i can eat it everyday O:
scallop, golden mushroom, cabbage ( super soft ), soup ( cooked with pig bones i think ), prawns, etc etc etc !!
omg, it tasted so heavenly *.*

hahas, after tat went to visit my great grandmother house ! :D
so excited .
lols, after tat took train home instead of car like we usually do .

yeah, anyway, it's a great day today !
i won $4 when i was gambling with my relatives .
how cool ? hahas, little though .. :\ but there's another day !
yeah !! :D :D :D

o yeah, was chatting with claudia, clement just now
and clement make me laugh so hard .
guess what did he said?
he said ...

Clement says:
*wat i say?

waihian ت says:
*nvm
*nrh
*nth *
Clement says:
*I SO SLOW REPLY
*RETARD
*HAHAH
waihian ت says:
*LOL
*look at wad u type just now
*ahahaha
Clement says:
*I CANCEL LE
*WAT I TYPOE
*WAIT
*SHIT
*I TYPO
*IS U
waihian ت says:
*LOL !
*AHAHGAHAHA
*too bad !
* u said it urself
Clement　　　　 says:
*SHIT
*ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHAH! joke of the day .
it made me laugh for fews mins .
HA ! it was so hilarous
didnt know he can make this huge typo error and he didnt even realised it
AHAHAHAH !
sorry i didnt mean to laugh at you, but it was too funny for me
ahahas

shall update tomorrow, so long didnt blog about my life alr
hahas ! :D
i cant wait ! xD

2010-01-31T19:05:00.003+08:00

had a random gathering yesterday night
actually was planning to have steamboat-bbq party at kristina's house with our usual people,
but kris's mother doesn't allow us to have it in their house,
so does clement, derrick and wei ting O:
hahas, so we had bbq instead .
it was very last min
is like one day before the whole thing ._.
hahas, but but we called anyone tat we can think of to join us O:
even though we call people few hours before we actually starting .
so damnn freaking last minute, but everything went almost smoothly :D

yeah, i think i screwed up myself yesterday ):
gahhhhhhhh, hope they wont realised it .
anyway, i cant wait to meet up li jing, li yun, si kang, claudia and alson for SUKI !!
kya !! ~.~ suki suki suki !

and and 5 more days to releasing of appeal results .
i never felt so desperate ._.
i really want to get into nursing course .
hope i didnt rejected by them ):
i wan to get in to a nursing course ~
lol, heard from my friends tat nursing in np/nyp dun have to wipe people's ass
O: ._. sound so direct or smth ..
hhahas, but nursing also can learn new languages .
how cool is that? ~.~

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i think i will stop typing alr .
need to do some stuff D:
bye byeeeeeee ! :D

avril lavigne - innocence
dont just leave like that ..

2010-01-28T20:56:00.008+08:00

HELLO WHOEVER STILL READING MY BLOG !! :D

i doubt someone came in to read .
but i will try to update frequently
yeahhh !!
about my chocolate factory
actually, it's quite interesting when u look at them making chocolates

i took serveral pictures
look look look ! :D

RABBITS !! for easter day , cute right ? ^^

majong chocolates for chinese new year ._.

very weird, but it looks so cute . ahahah !!

KAYA TRUFFLE !!!

it's freaking nice :D

2 pieces of that cost around $5 alr O:

i think .

KOIFISH !!

is for chinese new year, the proccess of making koifish is really REALLY troublesome -.-"

first step is to paint the koifish's spot

and the spot cant be too thick nor thin .

spent 3-4days doing the koifish alr -.-

freaking boring !!! T.T

almost whole day somemore .. ~.~

must make a lot a lot of koifish since there's a customer just one shot order 2kg of it

which is quite a lot :\

Macadamia nuts ~.~

quite nice actually :p

there's a lot of different type of chocolates, just tat i didnt take pictures of them

i wasnt allowed to take pictures D:

i want to try mango truffle !! T.T

the way how clement says about how delicious is mango truffle is, is really tempting me to steal one to try it

ahahahahas !

2010-01-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

HEY ! :D

well, been busy working in chocolate factory
and and ! i think im starting to like working in there alr O:
amazingggggg !

currently working with kristina and clement O:
without them, i think the job will be much more boring
29th january ! we will be eating in ajisen together !! ( after receiving our first pay for the job )
yay ~! :D ramennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !

yeah .. anyway ..
yup, about O level result ..
i was expecting for me to get around 20+
i was really really expecting, i knew i will get 20+
but when i receive my results, i was actually quite stunned .
den everything in my mind were blank
i saw that digit, i tried to laugh it out , but i cant control my tears

o well, what to do?
since i studied quite hard for Os alr, and it turns out to be like that
i regret that i didnt studied earlier .

yep .. i got 24 after deducting CCA . :\
anyway, i applied some courses ..

1st choice : Veterinary bioscience ( NP )
2nd choice : Veterinary technology (TP)
3rd choice : Multimedia and animation ( NP )
4th choice : Baking and culinary science ( TP )
5th choice : Digital animation ( SP )
6th choice : Music and audio technology ( SP )
7th choice : Digital media animation (NYP )
8th choice : Sonic arts ( RP )
9th choice : Digital media ( SP )
10th chice : Interactive and digital media ( RP )
11th choice : Multi nedua and infocomm technology ( NYP )
12th choice : Motion graphics and broadcast design ( NYP )

hope i can go in .. :\
if not i might be retaing O level this year ..
sigh ..

2010-01-10T13:31:00.003+08:00

i found a job in a chocolate factory called metisano ._.
$5/hr , and the working hours is super longggg ~
8am - 5.30pm . T^T

i still prefer working in watson, and i miss them so much ):
hahas, start working since 7th jan . O: and barely a week, i complain so much alr ._.

lol, sorry for my rantings though :\
yeah .. anyway on friday, 8th jan
it was ..

Li Jing, Shu qing, Ping Hui and Henry 's birthday !!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!
4 people's birthday falls on the same date, how cool is that ? O:
hahas ,

went for work with kristina as usual .
is like doing the same thing everyday D:
hope i can adapt quickly, and make the job seems fun instead O:
hahas, enough of work .
after working, went plaza sing to see my ex colleague !!
:D :D :D im really excited when i was about to reach there
hahahas ! i duno if they are excited to see me or not O:
miss them so much D:
hahas, after tat went back to school for campfire
met lj and sk at the general office .
nothing much actually :\
after that went home

9th jan
went for poly's open house with kristina, shu yi, sing jie and zoe .
went ngee ann and singapore poly as usual ._.
since we got no time to go other poly ..
around 4pm/5pm, went jurong point for shopping .
afterwards, i went to buy birthday cake for li jing and went vivo to meet them
whereas the rest went home/bbq .

met si kang, li jing and alson (?) not sure of the spelling though, at vivo .
went to celebrate li jing's birthday :D
cut cake, and took pictures .
slack for awhile and we went home alr .

was being a little pissed for the whole day probably due to the crowd in the places tat i went ..
i think this year, i throw too much of my attitue to my friends O:
im really sorry ..
so many things had happened during last year and the begining of this year
yeah, is you who reading my post .
dun wonder who im apologising to . :\

sigh .. later going to play bball with BT .
._. and tomorrow .. RESULTS coming out ):

2010-01-05T12:27:00.005+08:00

just watched " love guru " on my lappy
quite wow actually . lol
look look !

they dun look the same D:
lol, maybe i cant differenciate people or smth .
._. but to me , i cant figure it out that the right hand side of the picture is justin timberlake O:
what about you all ? :\

2010-01-03T21:35:00.004+08:00

i think im going to update my blog frequently, since i got nothing to do at home :\
although im still finding for a job ..
yeah !!
- nervously excited -
hahas, anyway !

HELLO everyoneeeeee :D
* silent *
....
._. yeah .. anyway ..

i received an e-mail from one of my japanese friend
ahahas, i remembered my first job was the tour guide thingy not worked in watsons .
._. even though i work for the tour guide for a day only
there's a photo with them ..

:D
Ai, Mai, Akiho, Yuri, Chihiro, Kasumi from the right of the photos

hahs , so how's life? i told myself ..
nothing special .
i got nobody to go out with T.T
is like some of them got school,
some of them working,
some of them, i scared to awkward to go out with
some of them, im not close with them ..
might be going shopping spree by myself
but but i scared i buy the wrong stuffs that doesnt suits me

GAH ! -.-
i wished my sense of fashion is good
):

lol !
anyway,
im thinking of buying a ...

ipod nano ! :D

and it's red !!
some of the money will be donated to the global fund for AIDS

and also a ..

samsung corby !!

idk samsung corby will come out in singapore or not D:
and idk if i get i hands on it
noooooooooooooo, unless i participate in the contest ._.
T.T that phone, is sooo cool and cute O:

and also a ..

vaio cs :D

geez, i think if i total everything up, it might cost a bomb ._.
i think i get the ipod nano first O: looks so awesome
and i can get engraving for free too !!
but, idk how to buy directly from the website
anyone knows ? D:

2010-01-02T18:50:00.002+08:00

HELLO ! :D

had my last day of work on 31 dec .
:D :D :D
they bought things for me, and im really touched eh D:
i only worked there for a month only , and they treat me so good .
i will go back soon ;D probably next week
hehehe, need to pass them photos O:
~.~

yeah ..
the next day which is 1st of jan
overslept, met lj at 10am instead of 9am
D: so sorry !
after that went to the kelly services to pass them the timesheet .
O: the building had their renovation on going .

anyway, after tat went to buy drinks and we find a place to sit down and slack .
took some pictures and we went our separate ways .
she went home while i went to my grandmother house

i didnt bring my mp3 player and psp -.-"
you know how it feels like when there's nothing by your side when you have a long journey ahead ?
it's horribleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ):
lol, im kind of exaggerating though
hahs .

yeah, reached yck walk towards my grandmother house .
kind of excited, idky .
hahas, reached .
aaron reached after few mins later and he told me he went for countdown with his friends at khatib
ahhh , sound so fun ):
i also wan to go for countdown leh ): ): ):
since i cant find anyone to countdown ..
bohooo ! T-T

hahs, anyway, play monopoly
lol, we play the disney one .
it was fun , keep shouting here and there
lol, crazy .

stay overnight, ( it's been a long time since we stay overnight to play or smth )
hahas, watched the taking of pelham 123 and final destination 3 with my cousins
actually wanted to watch final destination 4 but henry took it -.-"
lol, but still watch until 2am plus .

woke up the next morning, which is today .
went to play bb after tat play monopoly ._.
lol, went home after that , while cousins went museum with my relatives .
later realised tat dad couldnt make it for dinner when i reached home D:
shall cook my dinner later :D

byeeeeeeeeeeeee !

2009-12-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

2009-12-27T13:43:00.006+08:00

merry christmas ! ( belated )

ahahas, how i spent my christmas for this year ?

working ~

the day before, boss treated us pizza for christmas O:
ate in the shop .
ahhas reached home around 12am plus .
was afraid that i have no train to go home -.-"

anyway, on christmas day itself, there aint any much customers coming into our shop for chocolates . O: surprisingly peaceful

anyway, while working on the other days ,
there are some unreasonable customers that i came across ...
there's a freaking unreasonable customer .
ask us to wrap those chocolates in 20mins ( there's a lot of boxes of chocolates )
that's like insane, you know .. - and she got the serious look -

-.-" i didnt realised people can be so ... ( idk which word to describe them )

another cusomer ..
a lady, she bought a lot of chocolates , a lot of it .
she ask us to faster wrap
wtf ? she say she's in the hurry
and there's another customer here before her . is not like the other customer is not in hurry like tat .
such an ass seh .
she kept staring at us for how fast are we wrapping .
when farid ask me smth while wrapping, i answered to him with a few sentances, she will say " eh, im in the hurry, faster " ( in chinese )
-.- , i totally rolled eyes on her .

after wrapping, only say thank to mary
basket .

sorry for this ranting .
this is my first job, that's why im complaining so much
ahahas, didnt know working for this job need to entertain so many different kinds of customers.
but still, there are some customers that are very nice (:

yeah, after working on chirstmas, went home .
prepared the chirstmas presents for benjamin and gabriel
afterwards, went to meet ben .
gabriel didnt came -.-
passed it to him, and we didnt even know what to do next .
lol, in the end, went to slack till 11pm plus .

next year christmas,
im gonna celebrate with friendsss !! ):
i want to celebrate the special occasions for every year !!
such as halloween .. anyone willing to celebrate with me ? O:
ahahas, even though i know nobody willing to .. =\

4 more days ... to the end of the contract !
14 more days .. to PAYDAY !!!

sweet pay day, i cant wait to get my hands on you .
ahahaha ! my first pay :D

i want to buy many many many stuffs ! >:(
shopping anyone ?
who willing to accompany me ...? D: D: D:

2009-12-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

today , i was freaking unlucky .
my horoscope ( made it myself ) ; stay away from humans, they bring you bad luck for today .

here's how unlucky i am ..

today, i woke up around 8am+
was planing to wake up early to collect brother's camera from the samsung's building ( near imm )
but i was too lazy to go there ._.
so, i went to get ready and ate my breakfast .
before i realised, i was late for work . NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !
rush to mrt station and take train towards my working place .

yeah, was late for 10mins ._.
need to work until 6.15pm .
i was assigned to wrap 8~9 box of meji chocolate box .
each box contain 5 small box of it .
omg !! is freaking awesome .
total, i wrapped about 50+ boxes .
freaking cool, i wrap until shuang :D
i thought today will be good day for me, but ...
i was totally wrong ..

i had my break around 2.30pm
when i went to the stall to order my food in kopitiam for lunch,
i realised, i forgot to bring my money -.-
rush back to my shop and take my money .
paid for my food and find a place to eat .
when im about to sit down, got one cleaner, just bang onto me
idk how he walk, he just bang onto me, and the soup in my food spilled .
-.- lucky it didnt spilled my whole hand, just fingers ..
why he cant see meeeeee? im so huge -.-

after tat, i went to settle down and had my lunch .
after eating, went back to work .
on my way back to work,
i walk straight back to my working place,
and accidentally bang into a kid .
cos i thought he saw me and he will move one side
since im rushing for time ..
* bang! *
- a moment of staring at each other -
and den he look at his ice cream and den look at me .
doing tat action for twice or thrice .

and i realised, i bang into his ice cream -.-
his ice cream was on my shirt !!
ICE CREAM !!!
-_- went toliet to try to wash it away
but the smell stays .
nooooooooooooooooooooooooo !
should hv bring extra t-shirt -.-
( btw, i got apologise to the boy )

yeah, and i reek of full cream milk
yucks !

yeah .. went back to work after cleaning up myself
gahhhhhhhhhh, why so suay .

while working, i trip over my colleague and i fall back on him
-.-
i have no idea that he's right behind me
omgggggggggggg ! so malu ..

yeah .. after working, went wm to look for chocolates .
._. nth attract my attention, so went back home afterwards .
since is almost have the same chocolate stuff that as my shop has it .

sighhhhhhhhhhh ~
bad day ..
hope tomorrow would be better -.-

2009-12-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

hello hello hello !
i started working already, in watsons .
hehehe ! please do come in to plaza sing's watsons .
become a member of watsons ! just only $5 !!!
cheap eh !! you got lots of benefits when you become a member of watsons :D :D

hahs, right now, im really tired .
like i said,
last friday - chalet
sat - chalet/ went to collect my contact lens
sunday - guitar lesson / buy bbq food with benjamin and gabriel / chalet
monday - chalet / 4e3'09 bbq gathering
tuesday - first day of work
wednesday - seconday day of work
thursday ( today ) - third day of work

is quite fun while working and sometimes not ..
O: i helped them tidy up their carboards , which is full of tags ._.
yay yay yay , feeling good about it .
at least im not like a burden to them :S

i need to sleep already, nights ! :D

2009-11-25T18:20:00.002+08:00

had graduation night yesterday !

it was fun .

yeah, i don't like my contact lens, v blueish -.-

i was not comfortable wearing that dress
anyway,

here it goes on 241109 ..

took bus to kristina's house at about 2pm ( i think )

was intending to exercise, but when we look at the time,

we realised that we have limited time

so, decided not to exercise

wei ting and shu yi joined us around 3pm~4pm
bathe, make-up, do hair, etc etc ..

gabriel came around 6pm, called taxi ( 7 seater )

went west mall to fetch ryan, and we headed to york hotel .
geez, had traffic jam

O: but lucky we reached there on time

late by a few minutes only
yeah, sat down and started chatting and taking pictures .
kinda awkward over there ..

shall not elaborate more ..

hahas , had dinner

was rather average O:

after the whole thing,

went back by mr loh's car :D

get down at west mall since we meeting benjamin .

wei ting went home first since she was feeling unwell

get well soon !

slack until 12am+ and we went home .

2009-11-18T21:22:00.002+08:00

my blue contact lens :D

hahas, looks cool but weird at the same time O:

i bought it today ! and it cost a bomb to me T.T

seriosuly, i need a job ):

KELLY ! call me back O:

shop lot's of stuff for prom night

spent about $200 , i think D: or less .

damn .. why did i spent so much on it ? ):

2009-11-13T20:55:00.003+08:00

TODAY !

this morning, i woke up early O:
wash up and prepare to meet li jing at the bus stop .
went for band ._. lol, didnt know wearing home clothes in is so troublesome
need to ask permission all those D:
yeah, why we went back ?
because we wanted to ask our clarinet section about the gathering and also see how is band doing .

on our way to the general office, we bump into hazel .
hahas, asked her to accompany us to go for band

find mdm khong for permission ,
and we managed to have permission

woah, when we went into ava room
is like .. super awkward -.-
u know .. i felt some kind of uninvited feeling
yeah .. some people change a lot O:
become more pretty , etc etc
hahas ! im not pervert , im just stating the truth .

around 11am++, we were hungry D:
so we went mac to have our lunch ( kenneth, li jing and me )
while hazel went back home .

while having our lunch,
kristina, lynn and kenneth ( kristina's brother ) joined us .
sitting two separate table, side by side, seems that we were 4m apart ._.
that's kind of awkward ...

yeah, kenneth went home .
and we went imm to hunt for jobs .
hahhas ! awfully unsuccessful -.-
because we cant work together .
so, we divided ourselves into two groups
for having a faster rate of knowing which shop need to hire people .
after walking for a long period of time,
li jing and i saw a machine
( which need to put a dollar in it, and scoop sweet and put onto the sliding thing, instead of sweets, is soft toy )

we were very enthu about it,
like two small kid who saw big candy, and wanted it badly
hahas !
in the end, we got domo and tortoise
:D :D :D freaking excited .
hahas, i think tat guy think tat we are crazy ._.
(the guy who work there )

afterwards, we went to find kristina they all .
went back jurong east by shuttle bus
went to the CPF building to find kelly .
LOL ! at first we thought is a person called kelly,
in the end is a company name -.-
we went there for asking them to help us to find job for us .
O: hope they call us soon .

after finishing filling up the form, we went the POSB since li jing wanted to make another new account .
took mrt to Yew tee while kristina, kenneth and lynn got down at bukit batok
went yew tee point to hunt for jobs again ..
sadly, they rejected us again T.T

and, we went to walk around .
i saw a very cute bag ! O:
i bought it for $10 .
#^%@^# i spent $20 today
money in my bank is depleting
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

* i still need money to buy clothes for prom night D:

2009-11-05T18:38:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO !
-waving madly to everyone-

lol, kinda despo to say hello to everyone right now :D
cause .. major paper are over !!
still left with chinese and science paper 1

YAY ! :D

going to play maple during my holidays
ahaha! it's been 2 years since i play maple . O:
anyone playing ?
tag me D:

lol, currently waiting for it to download finish . =3
can anyone chat with me ? ):

2009-10-22T21:13:00.004+08:00

Tell me what’s wrong with society

When everywhere I look I see

Young girls dying to be on TV

Won’t stop till they’ve reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery

Photo shop pictures in magazines

Telling them how they should be

It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy

Is anybody gonna save me

Can anybody tell me what’s going on

Tell me what’s going on

If you open your eyes

You’ll see that something is wrong

I guess things aren’t how they used to be

There’s no more normal families

Parents act like enemies

Making kids feel like it’s World War 3

No one cares, no one’s there

I guess we’re all just too damn busy

And money’s our first priority

It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy

Is anybody gonna save me

Can anybody tell me what’s going on

Tell me what’s going on

If you open your eyes

You’ll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy

Tell me what’s wrong with society

When everywhere I look I see

Rich guys driving big SUV’s

When kids are starving in the streets

No one cares

No one likes to share

I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?

Is anybody gonna save me?

Can anybody tell me what's going on

Tell me what's going on

If you open your eyes

You'll see that something

Something is wrong

Is everybody going Crazy?

Can anybody tell me what's going on

Tell me what's going on

If you open your eyes

You'll see that something is wrong

nobody cares ..

2009-10-17T23:14:00.004+08:00

i change my blogskin :D
is still not complete, i will fix it later ..
which is after the Os

spent my whole day with the laptop -.-
gah, shall study tomorrow .

English
Chinese
Geography
Social Studies
Chemistry
Physics
E maths
* A maths
* POA

* subjected are not require to study so hard on it

anyway,
recently i caught a music video
which is justin bieber - one time !
he is really really cute ="=
i really like his hair .
omg omg omg .
and he's fifteen years old !

watch this video !
it's a must to watch it !
hahas .

2009-10-10T01:35:00.004+08:00

im busy with homework and revision .

gah, hope this year o level paper is easy -.-

and yeah !

is difficult to take the class photo -.-

during the proccess, i think i irritated alot of people, way toooo much D:

i think they hate me for it D:

click the links if you want to view the photos .

part 1 / part 2

2009-10-02T18:12:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey !
did you know ?
i got tagboard, which is at the " leave your comments "
i leave it for so long, and yet nobody tag it T.T
so depressing ..

nah, i was just joking .
heh, but it's true that there's a tagboard .

next week will be the last week for the secondary 4 .
D:
it's like very fast leh .
i wan to take pictures D:
and put it into my photo alblum
who want to be my model ?
ahahahas :D

and yeah,
i didnt know that li jing, si kang, leng na is having the last day in school today
that's like ... omg ! i didnt even cook anything/ buy gifts for them D:
and also take pictures with them . T.T
but going to do so on next friday :D
since they are coming back to school for some reason :D

next week onwards, i try not to sleep for my lesson :D
yup yup . i have to cherish it . xD

okay .. time to update my life to this blog .
hahas, i know not many people come here to read, but still,
i feel like typing it out .

i lost my ez-link card on sat, which is on 26th sept .
i was freaking frustrated when i cant find it .
i have something on on that day .
and break down a little .
that ez-link card, has been with me for less than a year .
and always bring me trouble by -mia-
-.-

anyway, i went to re-make my ez-link card yesterday .
and i have to queue for an hour plus .
and plus running here and there, finding atm to withdraw money since i dun have enough cash at hand .
and then rush back and prepare to go out to study at kris' house .

sitting on the rooftop,
staring at the sky,
looking down the buildings,
thinking some stuff,
was wondering when everything would come into an end .
in the end, she find herself pathetic .
really pathetic ..

2009-09-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

Went wei ting's house to surprise her ,
together with Kristina, Benjamin, Derrick, Jordan and Wei Jiet .
hahas, i pressed the bell repeatedly,
is her brother who open the door .
so malu D: lol, cos i stand at a corner and not infront of the door .

went in, and we chat, doing the board, eat, drink, and take some pictures .
hahas, at about 10.30am, we leave the house to meet zheng yang at jurong east
after that went vivo to walk around and buy some food and drinks .

Brendan joined us , and we went to Sentosa .
swam, built-a-sand-castle, volleyball, basketball, and took pictures :D
hahas, now, im really tanned ._.

after that, we went back to vivo to have our dinner .
zhi lin joined us when we reached vivo,
we (dapao) our food at food republic and ate at the roof garden
since we can't find any seats .

ate, and we celebrate the september babies . :D :D :D
sing birthday song and cut cake .
hahas, overall , it was fun :D

took 188 home with Wei Ting, Benjamin, Jordan, Wei jiet, Zheng Yang and Zhi Lin .
yup yup, the rest took 963 ( i think ) .
haha , during the bus ride, u can hear ...

" tweet tweet ! tweet tweet ! tweet tweet ! SMS ! "
haha ! it's wei jiet's sms ringtone ._.
i guess a lot of people sending him chain message of 090909 .
hahas, it's hilarous when the phone is being rang in that way .
like so cute . xD but at the same time irritating . O:

den today, went kris house to study at night as usual
study with kris and benjamin .
:D :D :D
cheer up , benjamin !
and im really sorry abt it ..

the rest of the photos are at facebook
u can click here if u want to take a look at it .
thank you for reading this post .
hahas .

2009-09-06T19:48:00.003+08:00

had band camp on friday,
it was sooo fun .
ahahas !

anyway,
after school, went maine house to bake cookies,
neither do i expect, kenneth called me that band camp ; the activities start at 4pm+
i thought they start at 5 or 6 plus .
so , i went home without helping them .
sorry ! D:

okay okay, then after that,
reached home, prepared .
and met li jing in the bus , and we went west mall since she wan to buy something .
after that bought some snacks before we go for band camp .
played basketball while they band members are playing water games .
i thought they got play captain ball leh !
i was being over-active for nothing -.-

but overall of the camp, was fun !
ahaha, was really hyped up during the night .
i was jumping around and singing-any-o-how .
ahahas !
they played cluedo and hide and seek .

heheheh, hide near the staff room,
and all the sudden my phone rang .
ahaha ! as in message .
forgot to switch it in silent mode .
lucky they haven't come out to catch us ;D

after mr ong and some people who are the catcher went to gym,
we sneak into band room .
ahaha ! it was hilarous .
was busy laughing in there .

anyway, i really wish there is another band camp in the december holiday O:
christmas celebration camp ~
that's cool lah ~.~
then everyone has to cosplay as santa clus .
then, everyone will be given a special present ~.~

ahaha, after hide and seek,
li jing and me went home , since we didnt bring any clothes .
too bad, secondary four alr .
dun think there's another camp for us alr .
unless i retain in sec 4 .
that will be so wow !

ahahas , but, if i retain due to my poor result,
i think the next following year i'll enjoy my sec 4 life first then study hard again . ^^v

2009-08-30T00:29:00.004+08:00

i really cant take it anymore ..
i really cant .

that's why ..
here i am , blog for the last time .
im leaving this place alr .

i packed my stuff into my luggage alr .
even though i don't know where im going to live or stay ..
but still, i made my mind .. im leaving tonight ..

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gotcha ! :D

there's no way im leaving my room .
my room so cozy ~.~
and there's no way im sharing .
pfft .

was busy cleaning my room ,
found lots of memories in it ..
throw lots of stuff , and donate some unwanted things ..
since i need to clear up my room , so that i can have so called " simple " room .
heheh .. don't worry, i wont throw my soft toys :D
they are still piling up my bed and boxes ..

okay ...
here i am, blogging .
today, went back school for maths .
heard bx says that there is a middle age guy trying to commit suicide by jumping down from a building ..
wow , how i wish i could be him .
but den in the end, that guy is saved .

accompany claudia to west mall to buy some snacks ,
and we went our separate ways .

oh well, been studying out late ,
always went back home about 10pm~11pm .
missed my show on television ):

can i have the permission to continue to live on ?..
but everyone .. seems that they dont want me here anymore ..

2009-08-23T01:51:00.002+08:00

kyaaa !
im finally using computer and typing it .
lol, is like so many days that i didnt touch my computer .
and so many days didnt stay in my room longer than 10mins .

yeah, been sleeping outside my house .
ahaha ! nah, im actually sleeping in my parents' room .
cause i find my room too messy to be slept in .
T-T
all the books and paper are lying around my floor, table and bed .
-.-

been studying for the past few weeks ..
plus slacking for the past few days .

and from monday onwards, studying again ..
freak .
sooner or later, i got white hair alr lahhhhh ):

i want eat good food O:
such as steamboat , BBQ , buffet !
but i got no time for it ):
unless it held it between 3pm ~ 5pm .

tempura !
i want to learn how to cook like a professional !
taste like those Japanese restaurant
ahahaha, that's my temporary goal before O level :D
~.~
imagine, wai hian, can cook delicious food .
woah ! no need to go so far to have delicious food for my tummy alr .
ahahaha! that so random .
:D :D :D :D

2009-08-08T20:18:00.003+08:00

ahahah ! im finally get to touch this keyboard .
im finally typing .
im gonna update ~.~

yesterday had picnic with 4e3 .
i was really really excited about it . :D
idky, but im excited .
lol, so the day before, i slept at 1am+
and force myself woke up at 3.30am, instead, i woke up at 4.30am .
i made the bread , two jumbo bread .
the whole proccess, was tiring -.-
went to took bus, but it came late .
decided to take taxi to school , so i went to hail taxi .
super malu lor , wa lau , that taxi, i thought it was about to alight the passenger, instead, it was waiting for a person to get in -.-
somemore that person is from my school .

basket, so went to find another taxi .
._.
went to school, pass the pudding that i made for claudia and shu yi . :D
it doesnt look good though .. but looks great to me leh D:
don't know why people say is like ... shit .
lol , but still, it matter how does it taste not the looks .

took bus to west coast park with 4e3 :D
took pictures, chat .
ahahaha !
when we reach there, we picnic together .
food were everywhere
so cool lah, the food .
ahha ! anyway, everyone were busy taking picture and eating .

i cook the bread with the paste to mr ng !
O: i went to toast it, i forgot he cant eat hard stuff D:
so paiseh . sorry mr ng ):

overall was fun :D
took bus back .
sweating like shit =.= , the aircon wasnt powerful .
after that, went west mall to meet charmaine and zoe .
planning to watch " up " in 3D format at vivo city .
but it was selling fast, thinking that there will be no good seat to watch .
so we went shopping instead .
went forever 21 , to shop around .
charmaine, kristina, wei ting, zoe and me went to try out the clothes that they have .
cool seh ~.~ clothes . ahahah !

tried one , and i kinda like it :D
but decided not to buy .
after that, they continue to try out the clothes, whereas, i went to find a seat to sit down .
gee .. almost fell asleep . O: so paiseh .

after that we continue to shop .
kinda tired with all the shopping , so went to buy something to eat .
sushi ! :D

went to the open area, and we had picnic again !
ahaha ! took pictures, and we left .
zoe went home, and the rest went lot one; cotton on .
look around, and we went our seperate ways .
but i went charmaine house to slack for awhile :D
left about 6.40pm .
and met claudia for dinner .
but we decided to da pao and went to the last floor of the carpark again .
the atmospher is great .
too great to be true .

shhhh!
it's my secret hiding place .
ahahaha ! want to have a quiet and nightly scene ?
ask me, i can share it with you :D

went home afterwards .

sometimes ..
i really wanted to tell somebody that im really sad, i need some comfort .
but it failed .
sometimes ..
i really wanted to tell somebody that im really happy, i want to share it .
but it failed too .
just because i got no courage and right opportunity to tell others .

ahahha, so .. therefore,
i seize this opportunity ..
to tell you all that ..
im going to cook my dinner for myself , and enjoy the pudding that i made extra .
food ! here i come ^^ .
i bet is delicious .
muahahahaha ! :D:D:D

and and !
my brother went malaysia with his friends ,
so sudden . D:
he didnt tell me, lucky tat night i met him in the lift .
ahaha ! enjoy your trip, brother ! :D

later, im uploading some of the pictures .
stay tunned . ahaha !

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the rest is at facebook :D
click here if you want to see it :D

2009-07-17T17:40:00.002+08:00

finally !
weekend is here :D

have not been sleeping properly for the past few days ..
always slept past midnight , either 3am or 4am .
then woke up at 6pm+ , then have to rush .
by the time when i reached the bus stop, always say " woah ! thank god, bus still havent come "
lol ! tat's so weird, i was like smiling away when telling myself that sentence -.-

anyway,
had chemistry practical today .
it was hilarious
fancy of me using the big test tube instead of the small one,
ended up cant put the stopper inside cos it's too small
and have to transfer all the solution to another small test tube -.-
mrs chua was laughing at it and her laughter is contagious, so i laugh together with her .
lol, and my partner was like " ._. "
and there's green flame, it's oh-so-pretty ~.~
went to video it, but cant really see it .
maybe the camera quality D:

poa ! there's 3 period , i survived, yet again !
xD xD xD xD
i felt pretty good .
even it was torturing to stay awake -.-

is there any day which i can have a long hours of sleep and many many sweet dreams ..?
): been dreaming my teeth drop off and it hurts cause the tooth is like turing around .
then whenever i eat, that pain keep occuring in my mind,
scary leh, that's why i eat with care -.-

2009-07-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

yesterday slept at 4am and woke up at about 6am ._.
2hours of sleep .. i thought i couldnt survive during lesson,
neither do i expect, i survived .
lol, didnt sleep during class for this week .
tat's so amazing !

anyway, i left house at 7pm to take bus to school,
but i reached class at 8am+
-.-
due to -no space to get in the bus - + traffic jam
so sad lahhh, wasted ..
shouldnt have come to school alr -.-

kristina got 7 days of mc, that's so cool D:
lol, quite amount of people missed her alr .
ahhaha !

lol, her absence in class, made me stay awake . O:
cos i have to copy down the notes , i scared i miss it .
then she got missing notes .
-.-
and come to think of it,
why cant i just copy what i missed from a friend .
lol, that so ridiculous ._.

remedial, remedial, remedial .
and next week is the speech day i think .
ice age 3 , i want to watch it ):

2009-07-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

hello, everyone !
i still remember tat there was a time that i suspected myself to spell "hello" wrongly ._.
which was today . lol !
but it turns out correctly, just that i think too much . ahaha !

another week is gone,
and 100 days to O' level .
-.-

i cant wait 22th july 2009 !
eclipse ! eclipse ! eclipse !
cool right ? who want accompany me to go to science centre to take their special spectacles ?
lol, den can see the sun directly if you wore that . then if take picture of the eclipse, is like "heroes" wallpaper . kya ~ it will be soooo awesome !

ahaha ! and also, claudia !
is also your birthday leh ! imagine, the moon help you to block most of the sunlight, allowing you to have a memorial 15th birthday .
ahhaha, so cool lah ~.~ i wish i was born on that day
eclipse is like making the time to stop , then everything froze
awesome ~.~

okay okay!
that's all O:
(need to do my homework T.T )

my memory is killing me today

2009-07-07T17:47:00.005+08:00

damn freaky .
lol, had breakfast with friends at kopi roti . [ not sure of the name ]
but on my way to there, i took the wrong bus, cause i thought that all bus at my bus stop could stop near around west mall area . -.-
then on the way to school,
kristina ask me, did you bring confirmation slip ?
totally freak out .
i forgot to bring !
panic panic panic
called my brother, and he was not at home .
so.. decided to ask mr ng to help me .

reached school, was late O:
o yah , i forgot to bring thermometer too -.-
but later, i realised there's no need to bring the old confirmation slip , instead, use the new one .
was kind of relieved .

then, mr ng gave us 1 set of E maths paper .
naturally, i put my hands into the mouth of my bag, searching for pencil box .
and i realised, is not there, my freaking pencil box is not in my bag !
ahhhhhh ! what is wrong with today ?!

i know there is o level chinese oral exam today .
and the day before, i thought is on wednesday -.-
lucky somebody reminded me .
if not , today will confirm panic like crazy
at least i got 1 day of " 心里准备 "
ahahaha !

anyway, lesson as per normal .
was tired after all the panicking stuff .
lol, seriously i was tired .
hence, i went to sleep during physics lesson, which was a free period .
woke up, my mind began to think of some stuff again . -.-
is running , i cant stop .
ahaha .
during reccess, bought drinks and we went near library cause zoe wanted to do her homework .

then had poa lesson for 2 periods, and some of us were released early cause of oral .
gee, i really felt tiny .
lol, went gym for oral at 2pm .
and we waited, nervous leh !

Micheal jackson, im sorry D:
i used your name in my conversation, and also pronounce wrongly . [ in chinese ]
i was like 哪个卖勊.... jackson [ unable to translate jackson in chinese ]
D:
cause the topic was about plastic surgery .
so, i use his name since his name is deeply attached in my mind after many people/newspaper were talking about him .

talking about him,
his dancing move is pretty cool .
nonono, is awesome !
ahahahs , he got strong relationship with his sister, janet jackson .
so touching seh .. T-T

after oral, went home .
._. oral was difficult afterall ..
nargh !!

o yah, been watching the absoulute boyfriend .
the tv cut some of the part ! D:
lol, tat's the difference between tv and website .
the drama is sooo funny !
i still havent watch finish, ahaha, still left with 3 episodes D:
but i read the manga, it's quite sad ):

2009-07-05T16:31:00.004+08:00

ahahha, this song is sooo nice .
so cool lah, when they sang the part " That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him "
~.~
been wanting to post something about the song for so long, and now, i finally did it .
lol, tat's so random .

okay .. i don't know what to update since my life is dull ..
but then i got the urge to type something .
just something . lol, since i got nobody to talk to .
talk to the wall ? ahahaha, at least they do listen to you .
hmmmmm,
tomorrow having steamboat with friends ..
i don't know why im not so looking forward for it .
normally i always look forward for steamboat party but not this time .
there are days that i feel like backing out from the steamboat ..

and yeah, i using twitter,
cause i saw many people using plurk and if i use plurk,
some people might feel offended .
lol, i don't know, i just felt that .
so ... i decided to use twitter cause i got the feel to use it after looking at typical ben and his brother, randy's blog ._.
pardon me for using twitter D:
sometimes they use handphone to update their twitter instead from the web .
that's so cool lah . instead of nobody-to-sms-to, i can sms to my twitter to update it .
ahahha .

also, i remove the tagboard .
maybe i will put it back when i feel like it .
i dont want to feel pathetic . O:
and those who want to be relink or something, leave me a offline msg in msn :D
i will be able to read it .

and also ..
thanks for making an effort to come in my blog and read . ^^
i doubt less than 5 people would come in .
ahahha .
better than nothing (:

2009-07-01T22:30:00.004+08:00

today ..
i felt insecure .
ahahas, its funny .
when i was doing something or not even doing something, i have a feeling of someone is going to hit me from my behind . hard .
it's kinda scary .
it has a totally different kind of feeling than my normal days .
is like .. for a moment, u felt like your heart sank to the bottom of your body, and the other moment, u're shaking with fear .

idk , and i also have a feeling of losing everything i have .
what should i do..? D:

2009-06-27T23:14:00.007+08:00

band camp was canceled , due to h1n1 .
-.- it doesnt make any sense when they cancel the band camp, but still having speech day whereas many people will be gathering at one place .

anyway,
i finished watching " my girl " , a korean drama on wednesday i think .
ahhhhhhh, lol . im watching drama again .
hahas, i cry during one of the night, at about 2-3am .
lol, the whole thing was so touching .

Wednesday

around noon/evening , li jing, syahirah and me were busy baking cookies for our juniors, teachers, and some friends . and write letter for our juniors .

seeee ! we so hardworking ~.~
over 100+ cookies , making an effort to put them into a nice packaging .
ahaha, i was jokingly telling them tat if we are able to bake cookies for the whole band, we should put the cookies into a container, those wide , big container, asking them to take for themselves . * take, take take ! *
anyway, the letters was very difficult to write D:
instead of thinking really hard, we chat for a while .
:D :D :D

Thursday

was band rehearsal, syahirah and me went to li jing house to arrange the packaging, so tat it wont be messed up .
hahaha, took taxi to school ._. $2.80 .
lol, the cheapest fare tat we ever received .

anyway, parade was cancelled, due to h1n1 again -.-
had concert rehearsal .
ahaha, was really looking forward for lunch ._.
i was really hungry on that time . lols, went kou fu with li jing, li yun and claudia .
ate, and we went back home .
and and and ! hope they like the cookies that we bake D:

Friday

lol, went out with li jing .
went woodlands, and we saw many many many many many many cute soft toys !
ahhhhhhhhh, lol, i want to get my hands on them . muahahas . nah, cos my room got too many soft toy alr ._.
anyway, went to night market, which is open on the afternoon ,
i bought takoyaki, and she bought sausage .
went to find a place to sit down to eat .
after eating, somebody walking towards our direction,
and i did something really really stupid .
i cant believe im so freaking stupid . -.-
dumbass .

sigh ..
after the incident, i told li jing to walk a big round to go back to the mrt station .
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . freak , cant believe im such a fool .
nargh ! went west mall to walk around, at the same time to forget the situation .
soon, went to buy ingredients and we went our separate ways .
she went home while i went vivo to meet my pri school friends .

the journey to there was tough -.-
idky .. i felt freaking uncomfortable .
reached and waited for them .
joshua reached, so we chat a little .
and also asking people to join us too , but no avail, nobody can make it, since it was so last minute D:

waited for about an hour, jing teck and dominic finally came -.-
so, we discuss about the movie stuff .
went arcade, played awhile .
saw pool ! ahhh , lol, too bad we didnt have time to play .

waited for yun qing . and she reached about 7pm+
and we find a place to eat, which is .. fig and olive restaurant i think ..
ate bbq chicken pasta, lol, cant really remember the name . it's nice actually :D
after dinner, we walked around until 9pm+
took train to west mall .

yun qing went home ,
so, joshua, dominic, jing teck and me went to buy tickets .
while waiting for the queue, dominic and jing teck went arcade to play .
went to buy the tickets for 11.20pm ,
we will be seating the 2nd row if we buy on 10pm+
o yah, we watching transformer .
nice ~.~

ahahas , after the movie,
all the shops in west mall was closed .
wow ! lol, first time seeing it .
ahhaha, joshua went home by taking taxi .
dominic, jing teck and me walked home since there's no bus service .
was chatting while walking .
soon, when we reached gombak station, we went our seperate ways .

reached home at about 2.30am .
._. slept at about 3am+ .

Saturday

woke up at about 9am+
im really really tired ._.
lol, left home at about 11am .
while walking down the overhead bridge,
i tripped , but didnt fall flat .
omggg, its a close one .
lucky nobody saw it O:

reached my grandmother house,
chat with my grandmother,
and aaron came .
-.- i think he's getting taller and taller everytime i sees him .
basket . lol, why cant i have his height D:
he is like sec 1 but has a height of 1.7m or 1.8m alr .
-.-

had fun , played picture thingy, cant remember the name .
lol, we have to draw smth to let the other partner to guess it correctly .
i know is lame, but it's fun actually .
hahas .

i was getting tired, and slept for awhile .
darryl is really noisy -.-
he keep making me to wake up from my sleep .
aaron helpped my to keep him away from me from my sleep .
hahas, thanks ! ;D

woke up at 5pm+
went down as usual to buy smth to eat and drink .
afterwards, went to playground and slack .. O:
went home when aunt called aaron .
sean and darryl left first .
so, left me and aaron D:
played some card games and had dinner .
went home afterwards .

ahahahah, sorry for the whole chunk of wordy post .
yet again, i think i spent my holiday badly again .
ahhhhhhhh, help me with my homework and studies D:

2009-06-21T21:34:00.003+08:00

HEY HEY HEY !
holiday is going to be gone in 7 days time .
O: so fast .
my schedule from tomorrow onwards ..

monday - buying ingredients with li jing and syahirah, and clean my house/room D: , den celebrate belated father's day :D
tuesday - band camp
wednesday - band camp
thursday - full dress rehearsal -.- and go out with maine they all to buy ingredients for the bbq . :D
friday - pri school gathering outing :D
saturday - go grandmother house and bbq with 2e5'07 :D
sunday - guitar lesson and do finish all my homework -.-

woah !
homework still got alot , and i only got one day to finish them all -.-

anyway,
went sentosa with 4e3 girls for pinic :D on last thursday, which is on the 18th .
funnnnn !
hahas . okay, after tat went to watch ghost of girlfriends past .
had dinner at vivo , and afterwards, we went arcade to play basketball :D
lol, den we went home .

and when i got home, i realised im half tanned -.-
not body, but my face . -.-
forehead + my eyes area were so called " white "
nose, cheeks are dark ..
ahhh, overall im dark .
but my arms, is "white" .
and my forearms are dark .
arghhhhhhhhh -.-
forget it, i duno how to explain .
need not read it .

but i was trying to say that my skin colour is uneven .
yeah .. uneven -.-

2009-06-16T23:39:00.002+08:00

okay ! today, had poa sub .
it was tiring D: from 9.30am to 12.30pm
but miss zhang let us go at 12pm as something crops up .

went marina square with clement, derrick, kristina, ryan and wei ting
to watch drag me to hell .
lol, scary la , that show D:
most of the time i was covering my eyes with my jacket .
so, some part i missed it .
after hearing kristina told me some of the part , soon, i realised tat i didnt catch it .

after the show, clement and derrick left .
so went to play bowling for 1 game .
den ryan left cause he got dental appointment .
went pizza hut for our " late lunch " .
wei ting left while we were waiting for our food , cause she need to go .
ate, and we went home .
ahahas, it was so funny while we trying to find mrt .
all look so unfamilar .
guess that i didnt went to marina square before .
it was my first time , i think .
hahas ;D

went to buy socks with kris and ryan [ who just came back from dental appointment ]
unfortunetly, kristina have to leave first .
hence, went up to may fasion to buy my stuff , and then we went home .

tommorrow, im going to buy a new spect .
cheers for me :D
hope my eye degree didnt went up high D:

2009-06-15T23:27:00.003+08:00

Sometimes,
i really feel like letting all out .
but i cant ..

shithead .

2009-06-12T23:51:00.003+08:00

O:
lol, after watching " boys before flowers"
i was being caught up by the tv series called " we got married "
._. i didnt know it was so nice to watch ..

this show can really make people laugh .
real bad . lol .
spent 2-3 days watching it, watch until 3-4am .
lol, cant believe it . ahahah .
i must some kind of monster D:
lol, after watching this whole thing,
really felt tat hyung joong is a very nice person .
and and hwang bo is really smart and hilarous person .
when they are together, the show became a comedy show .

and now, i got this illness, which i called it " addicted to korean shows " illness .
any cure ..?
i need it badly ._.

2009-06-10T13:34:00.003+08:00

-scream-
most of the guys are sooooo cute ! xD
especially the guy on the right, yoon ji hoo also known as Kim Hyun Joong .
ahh ! i love his hair . lol .
it really looks cool . O:
boys before flowers is sooo awesome !
- jumping around screaming -
lol, finish watching the drama series .
ahh ! i so going to re-watch again .
ahahas . :D
well, some other time ..

this month,
study study study D:
did really badly for my MYE .
L1R4 is 32 . ._. and im aiming for 12 .
is like 20 points apart -.-

yesterday was wei ning's birthday !

happy belated birthday to you !

okay okay, yesterday was busy watching boys before flowers since i woke up late for mr ng's lesson .
den received sms from claudia that she want to go woodlands to pierce her ear .
so so so ..
i was reluctant at first, cause i want to watch D:
lol, but in the end i agreed .
hence, i download one of the episode and put into my psp .
neither do i expect, it cut short the timing for the episode by half an hour -.-
i was like .. argh !
lol, left my house to meet claudia .

watch the 7 signs of apocalypse .
nice ;D,it's a documentary show .
after piercing, went to jun hong's house .
O: his house is sooo big !
and and i love his kitchen ! xD

and his dog, small yet loud !
so cute can ? lol .

watch drama instead playing monopoly with them .
den after tat play cards with them .
ahahah , funny .
den we celebrate wei ning's birthday .
took pictures, left at about 9+

reached home, watch drama until 3am+ again D:
lol, this time, i finish watching . ahahas !
it's really nice :D

2009-06-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 1st MONTH TO MY COUSIN ! :D

yeah , today had guitar lesson as usual .
it was fun actually ..
hahas, i don't know, i just caught up while playing the rhythm . :D

lols, anyway reached home,
and decided to watch boys before flowers, and download one of the episode into my psp
since im going to my uncle's house to celebrate my cousin's a month celebration
i cant what's his name D: i mean my cousin .
but he's cute :D

okay, yesterday had SPCA flag day .
most of the time we were slacking D:
but spent $2+ on transportation ._.
many of the school also doing the flag day .
bound to have some kind of " fighting for donations "
and hence, would lead us having not much of donations from the people .

okay, shall end here .
will update when i feel like it .

i regretted .
i felt horrible .
i did things which always made me regret deeply .
why is that so ?
even i talk, i also talk wrongly .
i answer the questions with a wrong answer .
why ..?

2009-06-01T17:47:00.003+08:00

BIG CONFESSION ...

okay .. here it goes ..

i have a awful life
that's what i thought at first .
i didn't know when/what went wrong .
until, i realized it was jealousy .
not envy, but jealously .
it really can kill me, my life .

maybe it all started since i was in secondary one .
during my primary school days, i was living in so called " cool days "
but still running around playing games called " virus " with my class .
it was fun . didnt care, or whatever shit .

but when i entered a secondary life,
everything changed .
i became more observant to my surroundings .
is like one giant person shrink into a dwarf .
able to see what below all about, as known as reality .
which means during my primary school's life, im been living in my world .

slowly, i seldom talk .
i don't know why .
is like having conversation with somebody disappeared in my mind .
i don't know use what topic to talk to people .
but i want to talk . i really do ..
i felt lost .

and slowly, i saw people, having conversation with others
its like , they have no difficulty by talking with one another .
playing with others , telling jokes , blah blah blah .
i was envy .

over years , which is 1 or 2 years ,
it gradually changed to jealousy .
not just having conversation with others, also include people with the looks, intelligent, wealth, fame, love . is like, they are having almost a perfect life .

yeah, i admit, im jealous .
really jealous .
but to them, is not . not perfect life at all . they called it " close to average "
and there's one day ..
jealousy turns to hatred .
hatred .. is like hating someone and felt like running away from the situation .
running towards my home, and tucked myself into bed .
but after i woke up from my sleep, everything went normal .
i felt normal . no jealousy or hatred .
just neutral .

during tat whole process,
it's called mood swing ,
well, most people called it .

that's the reason why i became so called " emo " at certain days
emo ..
but there's no such thing -.-
dictionary doesnt says it's meaning .
u can go check by going to www.dictionary.com
okay, maybe most of people know tat meaning,
but not for me .
no offence . i just saying what i know .

anyway, let's continue what i said just now ,
that's the reason why i became withdrawn at certain days .
depend on the situation ..
from then onwards, more and more days i became more and more withdrawn .

and today ..
i shall tell my jealousy to back off .
i don't want to be jealous anymore .
jealously back off !
i don't want you anymore, u made me think so pessimistic
my days turned gloomy because of your existence in my life .

well,
i shall try my best ..
i want to have a good life .
i want to communicate with others
i want to live my life to the fullest .
cause one day .. i might be gone .
because life is fragile .

okay !
i confess one of my stuff already ,
must be honored that u are able to know what going on in my mind
that's part of it .

today is GCE O level mother tongue paper .
include paper one and paper two .
yesterday night, i iron my uniform and packed my bag .
and i overslept today ._.
woke up at about 6.40am ~ 6.50am .
didnt had my morning bathe -.-
that's why i felt sticky for the whole day .
anyway, took taxi to school .
dam crappy, tat taxi got bee -.-
it cling into my shoe ! D:
got off the taxi, and i quickly step on it .
and it died D: im really sorry !
i step you because i dun want to have any side effect after you sting me during the o level paper D: if u sting me, i might have itchyness or etc, might not be able to concentrate my paper D:
so, im really sorry for your death .

okay .. had chinese O level paper .
got one teacher, give attitude . D:
he just throw my IC onto the table .
he did to the people in my row too .
den after the paper, snatch it -.-
what is wrong with you ?

paper 1 was tough ..
most of the words tat i think of , it needs the dictionary
there's 4 words, chengyu . i just type into the dictionary, and it really came out !
O: neither do i expect it really can do tat .
man, technology is getting too advance . lol .

paper 2 was easy BUT
i don't know use what words to use , and also, i don't know how to write .
hence, my chinese might fail again ..
-sigh-

went home after the paper .
ate butter bread with sugar ! :D
it's really delicious .
love it love it love it ! ;D

den watched anime .
lol, i know, im still young . ;D
therefore, i still can watch .

2009-05-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

yeah !
new blogskin :D
decided to use youtube for music cos cant find any code for that songs ._.
sooner or later, will change the teddy bear picture D:
hence, this blogskin is still not complete .

anyway,
today is the last day of intensive mother tongue .
overall was fun ! having chinese lesson at ava was so comfortable !
and lesson was like having free period . O:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KRISTINA !
hahas, cook spaghetti carbonara for her ;D
not sure is it nice or not .
but she kept saying it's nice . O:
sauce was too thick ,
didnt stir properly ,
so many error while cooking the pasta .
ahhh, shall cook again, to make it more better :D

okay, tommorrow is parent's meeting day .
not going, but going to pass smth to mr teo .
chinese O level is like .. monday ?
lol, time does flies .
so fast lehh %!#^!#^@
not prepared , but still, have to brush up on my chinese .
need to get at least a B3/B4 , even though i think i got a F9 for my mid-year .
-.-"

i think im just being too selfish,
sorry about my attitude on tat day ..
i know, it really sucks .

2009-05-22T20:50:00.009+08:00

happy belated birthday to me ! :D
and and
happy birthday to Dominic ! :D

hey hey !
thanks for the present and wishes ;D
i really really appreciate it .. :D
yesterday, went wei ting's house play labi .
ahaha, neither do i expect a cake from them .
thanks !
benjamin, kristina, ryan, wei jiet and wei ting were there .
hahahas, enjoyed for the day .
reached home and den watched tv .
ahhh, kris won .. instead of adam D:
so sad .

and and ! the day before , bro and my mother [ i think ]
bought me a crumpler bag !
omg ! love him lots !
ahh, even though we hold less than 5mins to 10 mins of conversation, everyday .
i tried to start a conversation with him, but it was hard ..
i didnt know what to do .
but i know, i really love you all, my brother and my family ;D

and and the day before before , which is on tuesday, after MYE,
went plaza sing
watch angels and demons with zoe, zheng jie, wei ting, kristina, dharmen, jordan, wei jiet .
ahhh ! it was sooo cool ! ;D
and zoe bought me a doremon cake , ahahah thanks ! ;D

okay, today !
had school as usual .
went band O.o ..
quite boring .. lol, doing those basic exercise again D:
reached home, met wei ning, and 3 people just poped up .
lol, of course shocked . D:
they passed me presents , and they left .
ahahas, thanks ;D

homed, and then now blogging .
finally ! lol, cos mostly spent my time on sleeping .. D:
tat is a bad habit ..
lol, and and my back ..
it's getting more pain than before .
argh ! am i getting old ? shit ass -.-
oh no, i think i broke my spine .
lol . nah joking
but it really hurts .. ):

2009-05-14T16:47:00.005+08:00

imma cusp !
lol, tat's so random .
exam period made me gaga and restless . -.-
D: hectic week is going to be gone soon . just 3 more days , 7 more papers
and i off , to prepare to do the stuff tat i've been longing for !
first. going to print all my kitten pictures in my photo album
and den cut and paste and decorate and place it on my table .
whenever i miss them , i can just flip it !
ahhh ! they just made my heart beat even faster xD

second, i will clean my room, maybe the whole house (?)
lols, yay !

third, party !

fourth, study for O level !

yay ~ going to start geography, social studies, ....
my plan has been organised .
and say hi to my kittens ;D

sigh, feel like hugging them one more time ..
D: they are just so adorable ..
ahhh ! do you know your way back here?.. ):

i have a feeling tat i posted tat picture before .
lol, oh well, it's cute .
doesnt matter anyway .
hahas .

2009-05-10T22:50:00.005+08:00

im grade 2 in guitar already .
NOOB ! wai hian , you're so freaking NOOB !

aww, at least i tried my best D:
it's freaking cool when you're in grade 5 or something !
yeah, im currently reaching for tat . ):
it's like you can play those R&B song alr .
with a score , of course :D
i will be !
the best guitarist in ... !
my family ;D
hahas, cos nobody play guitar except me .. ):
if one of my cousin know how to play, tat will be freaking freaking freaking cool D:
den can like go out and hang out to play guitar at one spot where people dont know .
so is like " secret hideout " . so cool lahhhh !

well, lets talk about today, people . ;D
today is ...

MOTHER'S DAY !

had guitar lesson as per normal .
promoted to grade 2 . yay !
lol . i know small cake . but to me, is big . ;D

anyway, after tat went to find a flower shop .
here and there , still cant find .
so ended up , went to west mall .
saw a flower selling $10 for it .
so expensive ! D:
but after minutes of walking back and forth .
found a stalk which cost$1.80 .
it just infront of me -.-

anyway, bought 6 of it .
salesgirl wrap it for me . and off i go . D:
got home . waited for my bro to prepare to go my grandmother house .
at about 4pm , we reached .
so cool lahhh !
i saw my cousins .
my cousins who seldom come , came today .
;D they got the coolest hairstyle !
well, two of them .
it's freaking cool !

well, all my cousins are guys .
aint geek , well .. most of them . all act cool one .
not act, it's ...
natural ?
lol . idk . it's just tat made me having trouble to start a conversation with them .
O: so sad . i miss the old days of mine ):
i wish we could communicate just like the old days ..
awww ..

anyway, went to watch chiwawa with my cousins . [ aaron, sean, daryl, ]
so adorable !
hahas .
den black sheep ; for a moment, i thought it was a porn movie -.-
everyone burst into laugter .
lols, it's a gore show .
watch until halfway , went to celebrate mother's day with everyone in the house .
too bad .. not every single one is present . ):

had red wine .
oh, it is soooo bitter ! xO
hahahas . after tat we continue .
went home after we watch finish .
ah ! im feeling gemini today .
lololol .
o yahhhhhhhh, i gave the roses to my aunts and grandmother ;D
and of course , my mother . ;D

It's outrageous beautiful .. (:
i mean the roses .
wait ah .. let me update the pictures and edit some part of it ..
please wait for a moment ..

there ! :D

2009-05-08T15:27:00.003+08:00

come straight home after taking away my lunch in a coffeeshop .
and yeah,
i read newspaper , since i got nothing to do .
went to look a closer look at the tnp dollar stuff
got ipod nano leh !

ipod nano ..
4G somemore D:
so, i went to collect it, in my house of course .
got a total of $950 .

and when i look again .
it's like .. 300x ~ 500x of the minimum price leh !
for example .
the 7.2 mp camera , minimum bid is $600
den the highest bid is $555 550 .
is like what the blank sia !
#^T$W%&$#

planning to save until $500 000 for it .
dun think i can do tat .
so, $400 000 .
but , i oso dun think tat i can do it either .
so , forget it -.-

earn the real money instead .
$150 . -,- basket .

planning to buy tat turtle soft toy and chopper and the huge candy floss to eat D:
guess tat i dun have tat fate .
ahahah, nvm . dun think it can squeeze into my room either .
haha ! ipod nano ! here i come ;D
i cant get my hands on you .
muahahaha .

2009-05-06T20:53:00.004+08:00

had been visiting mr ng for maths ..
hope it can help me improve a little bit ..

anyway,
it rain in the morning .
scared i cant squeeze into the bus .
lol, got one girl .
her bag is the so called " hand bag "
hard hard one . big big too . take out some space .
hence, i squeezed in .
i bet tat girl confirm ranting about me, behind my back .
hahas .

anyway, when i reached school,
i realised tat i pack the wrong stuff into my bag .
i packed thursday one . -.-
anyway, reccess .
kris went out without me realizing .
actually, didnt know what to react,
so me and wei ting waited for zoe .
planning to find her after waiting for zoe .
neither do we expect she's not there .
so we went to find kris and zoe .
keep asking around .
well, most of their replies are no ..
bumped into zoe near the canteen,
and we went up and down to find kris .
nowhere to be found, and unexpectedly found her near the bus bay .
around there .
she was keeping quiet . D:

after reccess,
was tired, maybe lack of stamina .
hahas, shall warmed myself up after MYE ...

after school,
went to find mr ng with sing jie, shi jie, angelia, xia meng and dawn .
went home afterwards !
hectic life .. sigh ..

i was there,
but it seems tat you prefer them to cheer you up .
what can i do ?
i only can watch and do nothing ..
yeah .. i know .
im good for nothing ..

2009-05-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

ah, this is so cute .
lol, now i know what to get for my next toy
hahas !
tat's is so random . lol

anyway, MYE is coming in 2 days time D:
well, think tat i going to do badly for it .
no, im sure of it ..
sigh , times flies when you having trouble .
lols .

o yahhhhhhhhh ,
zoe borrowed a astrological book from a school library .
didnt know they got this kind of book .
hahas, went to read about it . ( some part )
and i suspect tat i got split personalities . D:
how cool/scary is that ?
lol, birthday falls on the 21 may .
so, its either Taurus or Gemini .
depend on the book .
and and , what is amazing about it,
is tat i got personalities from each of the sign .
wow !

then i can conclude tat source A and B tells us that ...
nah, just joking .
lols, too much social studies in my head .
hahas,

nah, just joking .
anyway, i was trying to say tat im hard to differentiate im in which type of mood .
based on the book plus some thoughts of mine .
lolol, tat's was hilarous .

anyway, back to story .
after school, went mos burger with wei ting and derrick
since kfc was full house when we reached there .
tried the scallop rice burger .
doesnt taste like scallop ):
lol, after tat took bus home .
you know what?

i saw many people in the bus .

some familar faces, yet i duno who they are .
it's quite funny .
took bus everyday, saw the same people waiting for the bus .
yet, didnt greet them .
eg, " Hi ! " , " Morning ! " , " Good day huh ? "
it's so cool if they come to say hi to me instead .
lol, can give us motivation for not sleeping during class .
:O

oh, look at the time !
it's late ! ( lol, sounded like drama series )
good night ! have a bad dream for tonight .
muahahaha, just kiding .
hahas ;D

2009-05-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

heyyyyyyyy !
happy birthday to may !
lol, it's may already .
left 172 days to O's .
panic panic panic . :O

shall .. pass up homework on time from now on ..
yeah ..
teachers gave us 10+ homework in total .
just for 3 days of " holiday "
basket sia, tat's so insane .

anyway, today met up with Kristina, Wei jiet, Wei Ting, Zoe at BB mrt station .
yupppp, took train to JE .
kris and zoe bought stuff in popular and then we took shuttle bus to IMM .
went to eat at pepper lunch !
ate Unagi pepper rice set . ( with cheese ) ~.~
haha ! so niceeeeee and same goes to the dessert .
it was fabulous !
walk around the imm .
wei jiet left afterwards

took taxi to KAP
to the big big mac ;D
tat place was crowded !
but manage to find a place to settle down, although is "squeezy" and uncomfortable .
after few more minutes,
we changed seat to a more comfortable place .
since we found a empty slot .
;D
and then we start doing homework .
wei ting left at about 6.30pm .
and we left at about 7 pm ? cant remember .
took bus home .

2009-04-25T21:16:00.004+08:00

yay, an update !

a lot of stuff .
yeah, don't know where to start .
sigh, what is life ?
was driven to the edge of self harm,
i tried, but nothing was a success to chase the thoughts of mine .

pouring out my troubles through tears .
doesn't seem to go away .

all i need was a little bit of patient, and perseverance from myself and not others .
why cant i have ?
getting all pissed out for one small thing .
it's kind of silly, isn't ?

just a empty shell living in this world waiting for people to tell me what to do .
soft huh ?
why this soft shell living here ?
i don't know .
what's your reason for being in this world ?
i don't know .
who/what motivate you to stay alive ?
i don't know, probably fear .

yet, another day tat she stayed on ...

Thursday

had napfa test .
was all high-ed up, for no reason .

Friday

high-ed up during pe lesson , for no reason too .
geography test, and A maths test, both failed for sure .
had band practice as usual .
after tat took train to yishun
met up with a blogshop owner .
bought low kay hwa's books .
;D

Saturday

went school as usual .
stay until 1pm .
tired, not sure for what reason .

yeah, i know .
my hair sucks .
look like a retard, i know .
look like a geek, yeah, i know .
really fugly, yet again, i know .

2009-04-21T19:25:00.007+08:00

oh oh oh !
now i get it
im not in the circle .
how cool is that ?

anyway,
after the last band practice, which was on friday,
li jing, syahirah and me went BG mac,
made a video .
laugh until i got sore throat and mild cough -.-

here are the two video :-

shall post it more tomorrow . ;D

2009-04-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

" i dont think i have the patient to talk to you already .
everything makes you think tat life is unfair , too unfair .
well, think again .
there are some people whose life is far worser than yours . "

taken from | a girl with green face all day |
cool story .
read until tat person gonna thrash everything all out .
but i think she gonna failed it due to her past-time characteristics
so yeah,
really cool story ;D

anyway,
had school today .
i didnt sleep for this 4 days !
im so proud of myself . lol .
actually there's 3 free period .
but mrs chua took 1 of it .
cute teacher . lol .

yeah, tomorrow band practice !
i cant wait
cos playing a new song .
;D

2009-04-12T18:43:00.002+08:00

ah, im able to blog for my story for today .
still left with E/A maths homework ):
besides homework, still need to study A maths and skills of english oral exam ._."
did badly for chinese, so i ought to do better for english .

anyway,
had a dream last night,
nightmare i guess ..
i was running down a flight of stairs .
i kept running down and down ,
so tat i wont be caught by a monster/person .
tat monster/person is really really scary .
tat's why i been trying to run as fast as i could .
but failed , tat monster/person almost catching up on me .
hence, i try to hide away from him by running in a flat of someone's house .
btw, the scene is at HDB staircase .
thinking that thing thinks tat im still running down the staircase .
but,
neither do i expected,
he knew tat i went to hide instead .
he went into the exactly flat tat im hiding ,
i quickly went to hide under the table .

when i look up ..
" boom " i came back to reality ,
realised tat my heartbeat was beating really fast -.-

i got curious, so went to find it's meaning .
if cant find meaning = deja vu ):

definition of running in dream :-

To dream that you are running away from someone,
indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid.
You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions.
In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger,
then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears

To dream that you are trying to run
but cannot make your feet move as fast as you want them to,
signifies lack of self-esteem and self-confidence.
It may also reflect your actual state of REM paralysis while in the dream state.

To dream that you are running alone,
signifies that you will advance to a higher position
and surpass your friends in the race for wealth.
Alternatively, you may be running from some situation
or from temptation.
Or it may also mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision

To dream that you are running with others,
signifies festive and prosperous times

adapted from : http://www.dreammoods.com/

a book called " a girl with green face all day "

review -
deep inside your life,
there's a friend whose hatred of everything were so deep ..
yet, she still able to hide the fact
pretending to be " cheerful and naive girl "
what will happen next ?

how great is she eh ?..
hahas .

2009-04-12T13:11:00.005+08:00

HAPPY EASTER ,
everyone ! :D

i just design an egg .
but later then try out on the real egg .
muahaha , good luck to me ;D

sample : -

this is for claudia .
ahahaha ,
of course, i need to do for myself and my bro .
( with different design )
^^

2009-04-10T13:42:00.003+08:00

sigh,
how i wished tat day would rewind a little bit .
played badly for my part .
fucked up .
and now, tat whole scene, kept replaying in my mind .
didnt expect my tone sound muffled on tat day .
shit ass i said , shit ass .

okay , maybe i went a little gaga over it .. :\
i just said, gaga . gaga okay !
freaks .
whatever,

anyway .
2 days before SYF,
had chinese oral .
everything went well,
(yeah, right -.- )

mr yang , talked so fast D:
was unable to catch up with him , and and he talk chim words o:
i was like, " can repeat your sentence again ? "
and again .
paused every difficult word i saw .
yeah ! especially this word " 社区 "
every paragraph got tat word .
so i was like ...
"blah blah blah 社... 社... 社 ji .., ( shake head )
社...社区 .
( sighed for relieved ) -.- "
den continued on .

yeah, i know .
my chinese aint tat good .

this week,
is totally awful .
real awful .

and now ..
194 days to the Os .
is like about 6 months ?
idk, but i know is coming soon D:
im .. so gonna study ,
real study .
starting of this coming monday .

im not gonna sleep in class again .
especially, chemistry, english, poa, Emaths/A maths, social studies .
._." come to think of it, i think i slept most of the lesson .
well, anyway . i so gonna pay attention to it .
dont laugh ,
im gonna open my eyes and ears big big during class .

2009-04-04T19:48:00.007+08:00

i miss them so much .
and now, they are nowhere to be found .
* missing *
nargh, hope it suddenly shows up at my house :\

anyway, syf coming in 4 days time .
* ahhhhhhh ! *
tat was like so fast ?
o level coming too
* ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ! *
okay, enough of screaming, let's continue .

April arrived like one blink of an eye .
tat's was so fast -.-
gonna start studying and exercising !
i wan aim high high .
L1R4 - 12 points . ( currently 25 points ) D:
and at most 45kg . ( currently 4x ) D:
and at most 160cm ( currently 155cm) D:

lol, okay .
gonna do 100 truth quiz .

100 truths! after you've filled this out, tag 15 people and have them do the same .
1. Last beverage
coke .

2. Last phone call
shu yi .

3. Last text message
beng chew ,

4. Last song you listened to
Yume no Tsuduku he - surface

5. Last time you cried
last month i guess ..
cant really remember . D:

6. Dated someone twice
what ? -.-

7. Been cheated on?
i guess so -.-
sometimes they talk like so convincing,
obviously i'll accidentally fall for it D:

8. Kissed someone & regretted it?
ahaha . didnt kiss someone but my baby cousin kissed me . lolol .

9. Lost someone special?
define lost D:
as in lost contact , yeah ..

10. Been depressed?
maybe ? maybe not .

11. Been drunk and threw up?
nah, didnt drink so much .
i only took few mouth . D:

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
12. purple
13. black
14. white
15. red

HAVE YOU:
16. Made new friends
think so ..

17. Fallen out of love
frankly speaking , i dont know what is the true meaning of love .

18. Laughed until you cried
nop .. but i laugh until i almost cant breathe D:

19. Met someone who changed you
i.. im not sure ..
probably ?

20. Found out who your true friends were
everyone is my true friend ;D

21. Found out someone was talking about you
think so ..

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list
hell no . :]

23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life
well .. most if them .

24. How many kids do you want to have
if lah.. if i can have kids ..
maybe 2 .

25. Do you have any pets
before - yeah !!!
now - no .. ):

26. Do you want to change your name
nah, as long people can pronoun my name correctly .
lol .

27. What did you do for your last birthday
went out, walk walk ? -.-

28. What time did you wake up today
7.45am .

29. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping , i accidentally sleep on my sofa instead of my softy bed ):

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for
i ... not sure about tat .
maybe mass shopping ? ;D

31. Last time you saw your father
cant remember .. last week i guess ..

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
fate .

33. What are you listening to right now
Affections across time - one of inuyasha sound track

34. Have you ever talked to a person named tom ?
tom not in my friend list ):

35. What's getting on your nerves right now?
noneeee ;D

36. Most visited web page
blog, anime website, manga, yahoo, msn .

37. What's your name
wai hian ! ;D

38. Nickname
none . pfff .

39. Relationship Status
single

40. Zodiac sign
Gemini ! ( the twins )

41. Male or female or transgendered
female ~.~

42. Elementary
st anthony's primary school .

43.high School
Hillgrove Secondary school .

44. college

45. Hair color
black :)

46. Long or short
short ..?

47. Height
155cm T.T

48. Do you have a crush on someone?
nooooooooooooop ;D
but i love chad kroeger, he has a powerful voice .
which made him sound so cool ~.~

49: What do you like about yourself?
able to laugh almost everything which i find it funny .

50. Piercings
nop, im scared of piercing ):
it made me landed into hospital before. -.-

51. Tattoos
nah .

52 . righty or lefty
lefty ! ;D

FIRSTS :
53. First surgery
when i was in k1/k2 ,
had a lip surgery D:

54. First piercing
k1/k2/p1 (?) lol, cant remember .

55. First best friend
sandra .

56. First sport you joined
running/badminton (im not so sure ) .

57. First pet
terrapins

58. First vacation
malaysia (?)

59. First concert
cant remember

60. First crush

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating
none, im hungry right now D:

62. Drinking
mineral water ..

63. I'm about to
cook instant noodles ;D
after finishing this quiz .

64. Listening to
touch my body - mariah carey

65. Waiting for

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids?
yeah, if can -.-

67. Want to get married?
lol, if can . ( sound like im despo or smth sia ) D:

68. Careers in mind?
yeah ! psychologist/chef/zoo keeper

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

69. Lips or eyes
Eyes

70. Hugs or kisses
hugs

71. Shorter or taller
duh, taller

72. Older or Younger
duh, older .

73. Romantic or spontaneous
both ? lol xD

74. Nice stomach or nice arms
idk -.-

75. Sensitive or loud
sensitive .

76. Hook-up or relationship
relationship

77. Trouble maker or hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger
hell no .

79. Drank hard liquor
nop ..

80. Lost glasses/contacts
nop ..

81. Sex on first date
yucks , hell no .

82. Broken someone's heart
maybe?

83. Had your own heart broken
yeah, failed to get what i want .. ):

85. Been arrested
nop , im a kind citizen . wahahahas .

86. Turned someone down
yeah .

87. Cried when someone died
yeah ... i still missed my grandfather..

88. Liked a friend that is a girl?
yeah, many . as in friend .

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself
sometimes

90. Miracles
yeah ^^

91. Love at first sight
nop ..

92. Heaven
yuppppp

93. Santa Clause
yeah ! he's the one who gives something which are not able to be seen by humans/animals/insects/ etc .
eg, miracle and hope . ;D

95. Kiss on the first date?
no ? -.-

96. Angels
yup yup

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?
yeah .. actually, got a lot of ppl D:
grandmother, family, cousins ..

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
no -.-

100. Posting this as 100 Truths?
yup yup . i swear in the name of my soft toy dog called, mr softy . ;D

yay, finished .
those who want to do, do it .
it's quite fun ;D
yay, instant noodles, here i come ;D
guitar lesson, basketball, visiting my father's grandmother for tomorrow , yay !

hey girl ..
u hide everything too well,
your problems,feelings, etc ..
too bad, nobody knows ..
too bad, nobody know that u exist ..
dont you think tat people is so evil ?
they tend to forget what they have right now
and yearns for their desires
they dont even care about you,
they only care about themselves ..